After 2 years of hosting The Deep and holding space for others, I'm ready to share with you one of the traumas that I lived through. When I was younger, I became a victim of domestic violence. I was manipulated, isolated, physically and sexually abused until I didn't know who I was anymore. But I got out. Somehow. And this is my story.Sean Szeps holds this conversation. Someone I trust and tell all my secrets to.Please note. During this chat I may sound guarded or at times unemotional. I know that this is still a trauma response. Because of legal reasons I can't reveal the identity of my abuser so some things need to stay private. It makes this a difficult conversation because I can't share everything that I want to. What I am doing is sharing the full extent of this abusive relationship for the first time ever.Content warning; This episode discusses domestic abuse, physical and sexual abuse, and suicide. Support resources are listed below...
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episode 12: Favs From The Archives: ICU For Kids
Danielle is a paediatric intensive care nurse. That means she cares for children and their families at their worst point. Children who are sick, children who are abused, children who are dying. I think anyone who's able to take on this role deserves a medal. Danielle has seen the worst things children go through and still gets up every day to do it again.
Content warning: This episode discusses child abuse and child sexual abuse. Support resources are linked below...
episode 11: Favs From The Archives: The Lactating Porn Star
Ali Kali is famous as the lactating porn star. Yep, she's known for squirting dudes in the face with her milk. But that's only a tiny part of why I wanted to talk to her. Her story is a wild ride involving addiction, sex work, child loss, and... meditation masturbation?
Content warning: this episode is very sexually explicit and contains discussions on infant loss, addiction and suicide. Support resources are linked below...
episode 10: Favs From The Archives: The Son Of A Murderer - Part 2
This is part 2 of my interview with Collier - who lost everything when his father murdered his mother. Today we discuss what it's like to grow up with everyone knowing your sad story and what happens when he confronts his father in prison.
Content warning: This episode discusses domestic violence including murder. For assistance please contact 1800RESPECT the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling service...
episode 9: Favs From The Archives: The Son Of A Murderer - Part 1
Collier was just an 11 year old boy when his father killed his mother. And Collier was not going to let him get away with it. This is part 1 of the incredible story of a newly orphaned child's relentless pursuit of justice and growing up being famous for all the wrong reasons.
Content warning: This episode discusses domestic violence including murder. For assistance please contact 1800RESPECT the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling service...
episode 8: The Child Of Kings Cross
Glen grew up on the streets of Sydney. What he has survived is absolutely incredible, homelessness, drug addiction, crime and the absurdity of our judicial system. He's lived through the worst aspects of humanity and has wise words for the rest of us.
Content warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse and addiction. Resources are linked below...
episode 7: Gender Disappointment
Jordana longed for a baby girl, but instead she was blessed with three boys in a row. To some it may be trivial but to others gender disappointment is heart-breaking. The grief of the loss of the child you had imagined, and the guilt that follows is what we discuss openly today.
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episode 6: The Truth About Meshel Laurie
This is such a special episode. Comedian, media personality, and fellow podcaster Meshel Laurie joins me and we get real deep into her personal life. From her relationship with her father to how she deals with trauma to raising her kids. You probably haven't seen this side of Meshel and I'm so glad she shared it with me.
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episode 5: Grief And Intimacy
We deal with a lot of grief on the podcast and I think we have all been through it in some way. Today I really wanted to explore intimacy during, and after grief. It's not something that a lot of people talk about so I'm starting the conversation now. I'm navigating all of this with Rachel from LBDO. She is an expert in sexual wellness and has also had her own experience with grief.
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episode 4: The Gambling Addict's Wife
Last week we spoke to Elliott. It was actually his wife who reached out to us about his story and I feel it's really important to share both sides of this one. Tamara shares what it has been like living with a gambling addict for so long, hoping things would change.
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episode 3: The Gambling Addict
Today we speak to a gambling addict. Elliott was introduced to sports betting at an impressionable age and became a full blown addict for 10 years. As someone who doesn't fully understand the pull of gambling, I really wanted to know where the high comes from and what makes them keep going back. Elliott was really candid with me and shared things he's never spoken about before.
Content warning: This episode discusses gambling addiction and suicide...