Speaker 1: Welcome to Guys. We fucked Guys. We guys book. I'm Christina.
Speaker 1: I'm correct, We're sorry about last night the anti sluck
Speaker 1: shaming podcast. I never stopped, you know. I was having
Speaker 1: like a sex like desert for a little bit. Yes
Speaker 1: I blew Stephen the other day and it was so
Speaker 1: many yesterday. You know when you have sex and you
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Speaker 1: But um, I didn't do that, but I like dropped
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Speaker 1: I we and we like went to go to sleep.
Speaker 1: I caught myself doing the brushrom my shoulders off to myself,
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Speaker 1: You're welcome, Yeah, exactly, Thank you all. Be here for
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Speaker 1: night I was in the bathroom. I was taking off
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Speaker 1: was a great time. Yeah, it was so good. Hey, everybody,
Speaker 1: welcome to another episode of Guys We Fucked. It's the
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Speaker 1: I was looking for emails to read because that's another
Speaker 1: thing we probably should have done before recording. It's we're there.
Speaker 1: It's a special day, guys. You know when you are
Speaker 1: fighting with the person you live with and uh, you
Speaker 1: just forget everything, Yeah, all your responsibilities and things you're
Speaker 1: supposed to do, and then you're just constantly getting mad
Speaker 1: at yourself for forgetting things. But then you're like, when
Speaker 1: I'm angry, I'm stressed out, and you gotta look up
Speaker 1: the therapists and it's a time, you guys, it's a time. Um,
Speaker 1: I gotta say I did now remember that prompted me
Speaker 1: because I was like, who do I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: who do you live with? And then I was like,
Speaker 1: I'm not fighting with Alfred, but I do have to
Speaker 1: say something. So last week when I remember when I
Speaker 1: was like being very dramatic about Alfred, Yes, okay, so
Speaker 1: that was like that was a bit that I prepared,
Speaker 1: um to try to make fun of Lena Dunham. But
Speaker 1: I ended up not do you know we do you
Speaker 1: not know about Lamby? I mean I know that's her dog,
Speaker 1: not anymore. She said that ship back to the shelter
Speaker 1: of girl. You don't know about this. She posted about
Speaker 1: that damn dog all day and night. So she sent
Speaker 1: the dog back to the shelter after she could auction
Speaker 1: the dog off to all her soon who was a
Speaker 1: big fan of her and has money. That's also inappropriate. Yeah,
Speaker 1: that's weird, but so is send in the back. Well,
Speaker 1: I mean, although I do know people have done that,
Speaker 1: so maybe the dog was terrible. So no, no, no,
Speaker 1: but after four years, she so she rested for years.
Speaker 1: It takes she rescued the dog and then she like,
Speaker 1: and the dog has its own fucking Instagram. She's sucking
Speaker 1: photoshopping landing head, you know, between her and Jack anton
Speaker 1: Off like going hard and so yeah, it was a
Speaker 1: big thing she and and she wrote this big dramatic
Speaker 1: Instagram post about how you know their journey had ended
Speaker 1: and she was the mom as long as she could be.
Speaker 1: It's like, no, if you're a mom, you're always a yeah.
Speaker 1: You can't just be like yeah getting it back. What
Speaker 1: are you doing did she say why? She said like
Speaker 1: she had a reason. She was saying like it had
Speaker 1: aggression problems. But you would know that before four years everyone.
Speaker 1: Although I will say this, and this is in her defense,
Speaker 1: this has happened to my parents dog, didn't They didn't
Speaker 1: adopt the dog. I think they gotta remember, I have
Speaker 1: no freaking idea anyway, Zach is their pit bull and
Speaker 1: they two years in. Zach is the best dog, loving amazing.
Speaker 1: He started biting because exercise that he almost bit my
Speaker 1: dad's hand off. No, it was weird. He would do
Speaker 1: this thing where at night, everyone like it was random,
Speaker 1: but he would start growling at my dad like he
Speaker 1: was going to kill my dad, obsessed with my dad,
Speaker 1: and then he would bite his own He almost bit
Speaker 1: his hand off. My dad's hand was mangled. Turns out
Speaker 1: he's had seizures and he's been on seizure medication. He
Speaker 1: hasn't had one of those outbursts, so it wasn't It
Speaker 1: wasn't at all related so that he needed to run.
Speaker 1: It wasn't because they exercise really common. My my dad
Speaker 1: would take Zack to this baseball field and run him
Speaker 1: every day for like an hour. Alright, Well, Anyway, Lena
Speaker 1: Dunham has all the money of the world, so if
Speaker 1: the dog had scars, she would know that's already. Like,
Speaker 1: that's not the problem. The problem is that I think
Speaker 1: we I do love Lena Dunham, but that yeah, she's
Speaker 1: a little clazy, uh and also I think a little late.
Speaker 1: She did show up to a sold out Webster Hall
Speaker 1: show in leggings n a sweater that I wouldn't wear
Speaker 1: to bed, so and I'm not she's comfortable my own skin,
Speaker 1: and no, that's not okay. There's sometimes things get comfortable.
Speaker 1: So me and James thought it would be hilarious to
Speaker 1: start this bit where that Alfred had aggression problems. Oh
Speaker 1: oh my head, and then started putting up I'm good
Speaker 1: at acting, and then I put and then and then
Speaker 1: I put, I put all these I started posting all
Speaker 1: these Instagram videos, but it was like just literally Alfred
Speaker 1: like playing with a toy, like a nice dog. And
Speaker 1: then I would and then I would write, I would
Speaker 1: write no God, and then I would write good. I
Speaker 1: would get this monster. I was like, look at him,
Speaker 1: and remember how I tried to say that he was
Speaker 1: like racist. I just made up a bunch of oh
Speaker 1: my god, that I was really invested in it. I
Speaker 1: told James. I was like, oh COOLM was so upset
Speaker 1: last week. I know that's why I was like. I
Speaker 1: was like, I gotta tell her because the reason I
Speaker 1: would have kept the bit going longer. And I secretly
Speaker 1: told you about it. But I can't do it any
Speaker 1: longer because honestly, my heart hurt all week from everyone
Speaker 1: thinking that Alfred wasn't a good boy, and I just
Speaker 1: couldn't do it any longer. So and I was like,
Speaker 1: you know what, not no joke is worth bad press
Speaker 1: for my little Alfae. He's a little my little baby,
Speaker 1: and I can't do it because everyone started emailing me
Speaker 1: about like getting him a behavioral therapist, and then I
Speaker 1: got fucking mad. I was like, my son did therapist? Um, yeah, no,
Speaker 1: he's great. He did eat a plastic hamburger this week, uh,
Speaker 1: which was not a real hamburger, and then hit it
Speaker 1: out and barfed it up piece by piece. But I
Speaker 1: mean that was just a fun, delightful thing. You keep
Speaker 1: it tally, going to make sure you put it back together. Yeah, no,
Speaker 1: he's yeah, so Alfred's a good boy, no problems. This
Speaker 1: was okay. I didn't know that I was rendezvousing with
Speaker 1: the comedy art form of parody, right right, right right.
Speaker 1: I wish you could communicate and dog to Alfred what
Speaker 1: you did. I feel like you'd be like, yeah, he's
Speaker 1: a cud, that's my mom baby. I feel like he
Speaker 1: would say that, but it was nothing hurtful to any
Speaker 1: want else. I no, I think it would be amused
Speaker 1: by it. Oh yeah, I'll kind of county a little.
Speaker 1: Alfred is very mischievous. It's awesome, So he would have
Speaker 1: he would have really liked that. Um. But yeah, I
Speaker 1: mean I thought that was just so funny about the
Speaker 1: Leader Dunham thing, because because then because to then read
Speaker 1: her dramatic post, and then she also posted this like
Speaker 1: sketch of Lamby and she's like sketch, Yeah, she's like this.
Speaker 1: In that time, she could have been taking care of
Speaker 1: the dog training it. I don't know if she did
Speaker 1: this sketch, but she's like this sketch hangs in my corridor.
Speaker 1: So I still see Lammy every day. It's real hard
Speaker 1: for me to be on board with that. And he
Speaker 1: I really do like Leader Dunna, but she needs to
Speaker 1: make she gets some of a couple of things that
Speaker 1: she does are yeah, yeah, and then she's like, I
Speaker 1: can I can no longer support him with love on
Speaker 1: this journey, but I can support him with money. I'm
Speaker 1: still taking care of him, and then basically the rest.
Speaker 1: So I guess she's still giving money to him because
Speaker 1: she gave him back to the rescue, which is the
Speaker 1: proper etiquette. If you have a rescue dog and you
Speaker 1: can no longer take care of it, it it says in
Speaker 1: the paperwork that you sign, please bring him back to
Speaker 1: the rescue because you don't want to bring him back
Speaker 1: to kill shelter by act um or of course, if
Speaker 1: you have a family member who really can take well,
Speaker 1: I know, if dogs will have bitten people multiple times
Speaker 1: and stuff, they have to be put down at certain
Speaker 1: you don't tell anybody. Yeah the dead dog joke. Karen Um,
Speaker 1: Oh my god. Okay, guys, um, okay. So anyway, Lena Dunham, Yeah,
Speaker 1: nor dog back in the shelter, Alfred sitting pretty on
Speaker 1: that vampire couch. Yeah, no, she was, She's he's back
Speaker 1: in the shelter. But then then the shelter released the
Speaker 1: statement that was like, girl, if the dog didn't have
Speaker 1: any aggression problem this way. Yeah, they you are? Are you? Christina?
Speaker 1: The shelter clapped back. They clapped back, They said, they said, Lena,
Speaker 1: you would just be a lazy and it's like, I,
Speaker 1: I really I think Lena's a great work. I think
Speaker 1: she's a very creative mind. But yeah, but that doesn't
Speaker 1: mean you're got a raising a dog. But also fliggings
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Speaker 1: I don't Now we gotta stop telling her what to do.
Speaker 1: That's not feminist. But don't do that with your dog.
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Speaker 1: we're family. Guy. People come on the Guys podcast and
Speaker 1: then immediately just feel like too, what was that? I feel? Yeah,
Speaker 1: I like have steal does every Sometimes they don't leave
Speaker 1: after their interview and they stay talking. It's crazy they do.
Speaker 1: That was so many people. Was a nice total way
Speaker 1: of Christina telling you that we have a lot of
Speaker 1: things to do right after we pressed stop on this. Truly,
Speaker 1: I want to hang out with all the people right now.
Speaker 1: We're gonna go, We're gonna pretend that we're your friends
Speaker 1: for an hour, and then we're gonna be like, no,
Speaker 1: we're friends, We're friends. How are you sorry? Not made
Speaker 1: this about you at all yet? Sorry? Oh please? I
Speaker 1: am so comfortable with mental share embroider in that chair.
Speaker 1: Yeah I need it, Thanks for having me, but I'm
Speaker 1: gonna have to take this chair. It also matches your
Speaker 1: green juice, which I'm drooling over. Okay, okay, We'll get
Speaker 1: to Alyssa's terrible eating disorder in a second. But I
Speaker 1: mean she walked in. I'm drinking a green juice, which,
Speaker 1: for listeners, you know, this is like the work. This
Speaker 1: is the sixth layer of my hell. Is me drinking
Speaker 1: a green juice? Worst off that I made my fucking
Speaker 1: self because then it doesn't also doesn't even taste good
Speaker 1: on top of your app in it, I put I know,
Speaker 1: I bought like a Yeah, I was gonna say, listen,
Speaker 1: if that has if that has one ounce of apple
Speaker 1: in it, I'm out. WHOA wait a minute. I was
Speaker 1: under the impression of that was salary and tale, bitch,
Speaker 1: if there is apple in that almost humorous approach eating disorder,
Speaker 1: discussion of every pretty thing in here is pineapple. But
Speaker 1: that helps because I have an aesthetic okay with the
Speaker 1: acid like in the stomach. Shit, pineapple really helps with bloating. Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm like a free like if I like, if there's
Speaker 1: even announce of sugar and green juice, I can't touch it.
Speaker 1: But then you know, I'll have like a kit kat
Speaker 1: or something. So you mean you can only um, like
Speaker 1: do all veggie ones. Okay, yeah, I vegetables anyway, I
Speaker 1: really like beat juice. And is that for a reason
Speaker 1: that's associated with eating disorder or you're like, yeah, I
Speaker 1: just don't want to. Oh, how do you know the difference?
Speaker 1: That's a great question because it's all just like that. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I just jump right and I meant to start from
Speaker 1: the beginning. But let's just go into this. Yes, what this? Yes,
Speaker 1: we don't need small talk, okay to handle these problems.
Speaker 1: What what? What is your? What is yours? Well, it's weird.
Speaker 1: I was interrextic in college and then I'm technically sort
Speaker 1: of in I've been in recovery since. But recovery is
Speaker 1: just a weird word. That's like the rest of your
Speaker 1: I mean, yeah, a little bit. That's how it feels.
Speaker 1: Because when you're an alcoholic, I know that people for
Speaker 1: from alcoholism even so over thirty years, but there's still
Speaker 1: you know, thinking about it. So that's like a lifelong journey. Well,
Speaker 1: they're still technically an alcoholic. So are you still technically
Speaker 1: anorectic even when you are not going through the motions
Speaker 1: of anorexia. You know, it's like, I think I'd never
Speaker 1: identify as that because I feel too fat to say
Speaker 1: that I'm anorexic. If that makes it like I would
Speaker 1: never say currently currently, so then you you oh god right, well,
Speaker 1: thank you, ladies. I've gotten what I need here, all right,
Speaker 1: where's no no, no, But yeah, I mean, like I guess,
Speaker 1: I don't say I'm I say I'm recovering from anorexia
Speaker 1: because okay, um, yeah, maybe I look skinny to you guys.
Speaker 1: But I know, I know, well, I know exactly what
Speaker 1: you mean because I did see one episode of The
Speaker 1: Real World Educated feel I feel I was talking to
Speaker 1: a doctor. Oh my god, well done, oh professional. Okay,
Speaker 1: if this is the first episode where the guest walks out,
Speaker 1: we're fine with that. We understand. Yeah, it's for sure.
Speaker 1: Oh no, no, I mean that's yeah. No. I still
Speaker 1: that is interesting, Christine about the alcoholic thing, because I
Speaker 1: think there's uh not to but I think with alcohol,
Speaker 1: not trag, but with alcohol, you know, it's like, Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm choosing not to drink that anymore. But with food,
Speaker 1: it's like, well, I'm it's still there. I can't just
Speaker 1: I'd love to be like, I'm done right, I'd love
Speaker 1: to cut it out. Well. I actually I am a
Speaker 1: person who doesn't eat a lot. I don't eat really,
Speaker 1: I mean I eat, but um, but it's but for me, it's, uh,
Speaker 1: I'm just not a hungry person. I don't and my
Speaker 1: my stomach hurts all the time from everything. So it's
Speaker 1: like I associate a cupcake with a stomachache. So to me,
Speaker 1: a cupcake is it doesn't feel delicious to me when
Speaker 1: I look at it, you know what I'm saying. But
Speaker 1: then I'm like, and sometimes I don't. Karen always like, yeah,
Speaker 1: you don't really eat. But you're one of the only
Speaker 1: people I know in my life that truly I would say,
Speaker 1: doesn't like food. Yeah, but I'm not. So then sometimes
Speaker 1: when you talk about no, you're not. But this is
Speaker 1: an intervention, Christine, again you're not. But just sometimes you
Speaker 1: you do talk about like I eat so much, and
Speaker 1: then I do want to stab you. I gotta so
Speaker 1: I do. Sorry, it's any I eat so much and
Speaker 1: I was like, you know much one time? Yeah, that
Speaker 1: one time was memorable. Okay, Christmas, you had dessert, Christine. Okay,
Speaker 1: let's move on. But I don't feel I don't feel. Yeah,
Speaker 1: but interacted. Is that associated though, with guilt though? If
Speaker 1: you do eat? Yes, so I think. I think for me,
Speaker 1: it's not that I have an ambivalence towards food. It's
Speaker 1: much more that like, I, yeah, it's food is kind
Speaker 1: of always yeah, it's yeah. If I I associate a
Speaker 1: cupcake with like, that will inform maybe two days of
Speaker 1: eating if I have a whole if I were to
Speaker 1: ever eat a whole cupcake, that would mess up like
Speaker 1: a few days when the last time you ate a
Speaker 1: whole cup I don't. I sadly couldn't tell you. So
Speaker 1: you're like, are you like a picker? Kind of okay,
Speaker 1: and you'll do a lot of snacking? Yes, I don't. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't do a lot of of meals
Speaker 1: have the same relationship, We have the same habits, but
Speaker 1: different relationships and food. I dumped food. No, I I
Speaker 1: don't care. I just don't care about it. Wow, that's weird. Okay,
Speaker 1: this is interesting, that's great. I mean I think you
Speaker 1: have probably a healthy relationship in a way. Yeah, I
Speaker 1: don't know. I don't what's healthy. I don't know healthy.
Speaker 1: I don't know. Healthy is my brother being like I
Speaker 1: forgot to eat? I can't because you're always just thinking
Speaker 1: about it? Yeah, I think, because I think you and
Speaker 1: I are actually the complete opposites because I'm also thinking
Speaker 1: about food all the time, but never in a in
Speaker 1: a guilty way, just like almost like a dog, like
Speaker 1: how can I get more of it? Truly? Like I have.
Speaker 1: There's a long story about how I think I was
Speaker 1: a dog in the past life. We're not going to
Speaker 1: that she was. It's weird, Christina, that's called parcad It's not.
Speaker 1: Oh god, that's because I shipped myself. Okay. Anyway, she
Speaker 1: ships on the floor, walks away. It doesn't feel guilty.
Speaker 1: She's a dog. When did this first come up with you?
Speaker 1: Do you remember? Um? Yeah, I I was. Actually I
Speaker 1: just went to my five year college reunion and it
Speaker 1: was really haunting to be back there because it's in
Speaker 1: the it's in the woods, it's in the mountains, So
Speaker 1: like I haven't been since I graduated. And there's something
Speaker 1: very It's kind of like you know when you break
Speaker 1: up with someone and there's a song you don't listen
Speaker 1: like that because and then five years later you listen
Speaker 1: to it and it just kind of floods. Yeah. It
Speaker 1: just so. It happened in college. I was in love
Speaker 1: with my boyfriend from high school. It was like a
Speaker 1: summer love, and then he broke up with me, and
Speaker 1: I lost my grandfather and I just remember, like, basically,
Speaker 1: it's stopping eating. So it was a form of control
Speaker 1: to feel in control at a time where you felt
Speaker 1: out of control. Yeah, totally. Yeah. Yeah, because I have
Speaker 1: you ever made your I used some um, I talked
Speaker 1: about some podcasts so many times so but I haven't
Speaker 1: talked to you about it. But uh um. I did
Speaker 1: that once with bulimia for like six months after somebody
Speaker 1: dumped me. Interesting And because I remember, I remember when
Speaker 1: the therapist told me you just want control, I'm like,
Speaker 1: oh good, because I'm like, I don't think I don't
Speaker 1: look in the mirror and go, oh this is I
Speaker 1: don't see a four pound version of myself and I'm
Speaker 1: look in the mirror anything. But I did want to control,
Speaker 1: and that was that. I don't know, it was satisfying
Speaker 1: control that that gave me. Yeah, exactly, I just remember, Yeah,
Speaker 1: it felt like winning, like I feel like using everything
Speaker 1: in my life. I loved my parents and to be
Speaker 1: like moving away from them just I didn't find my
Speaker 1: place at my college, and I just remember feeling like, Okay,
Speaker 1: well if I if I can be skinny, I'm like
Speaker 1: I'm winning. And well, society does treat women as if
Speaker 1: that is what the rule is, so I get how
Speaker 1: people feel that way, but mean, were you not skinny
Speaker 1: or did you only see yourself as not skinny? Like
Speaker 1: did you have a different body type than you have now?
Speaker 1: I yeah, gosh, it's hard. It's it's all murky because
Speaker 1: I yeah, I definitely feel I'm not sure. I don't
Speaker 1: I'm not really well. I don't wait hard figure out
Speaker 1: what you don't want yourself ever. Ever. I basically once
Speaker 1: I started having because I used to obsessively wear my
Speaker 1: shirt and then I just got to a point where
Speaker 1: I was like, this isn't healthy and was that the
Speaker 1: addiction almost too like that high of Oh it's a
Speaker 1: lower number, it's a pound lighter, it's yes, and I
Speaker 1: would buy short smaller and I would just like it
Speaker 1: was it was like this sick kind of game. But yeah,
Speaker 1: and then I just was getting hospitalized and I was
Speaker 1: like passing out and I had that yeah, and then
Speaker 1: I do people notice before you did? That's the weird
Speaker 1: part about being young, Like I just I didn't know
Speaker 1: I did. I thought I was, and then I just yeah, people,
Speaker 1: that is like the pitome of being young, as you
Speaker 1: don't know and everyone else around you does that. Yeah,
Speaker 1: did you have a feeling? I didn't have a feeling
Speaker 1: until someone told me. And then I looked it up
Speaker 1: and I was like, oh, yeah, everything makes sense, and
Speaker 1: I remember crying kind of being like okay, actually, never mind,
Speaker 1: let's fix I remember that day being like, uh, let's
Speaker 1: not do this anymore, let's fix it. And then I
Speaker 1: you know, it's been what five years, and I haven't
Speaker 1: fixed Well, how how do how do you? How does
Speaker 1: one even begin to start fixing that? I mean, how
Speaker 1: do you? Because you are fixing it right, yeah, definitely honestly,
Speaker 1: and that you're just number one self aware of it. Great.
Speaker 1: I would think that that's I mean they say that
Speaker 1: in all these it's the first step that's realizing it,
Speaker 1: but it kind of is. It is. Yeah, first of
Speaker 1: realizing it, A big step is definitely wanting to get better.
Speaker 1: And that's the one that I think, I yeah, I
Speaker 1: I I think if you really want to get better,
Speaker 1: you can get better. And the trick is like really
Speaker 1: wanting to get better. Yeah, so what you said that
Speaker 1: with some hesitation, So is there a part of you
Speaker 1: that's just still wants to be like super thin and
Speaker 1: like so not get better? I think so, yeah, I
Speaker 1: think if I didn't and and I I think it's
Speaker 1: thin and but I think still a big part of
Speaker 1: it is it's like a it's just a drug. It's
Speaker 1: like a over this one thing in your life, and
Speaker 1: it's and how can you get out of it? That
Speaker 1: is a tomb a spiral of like when you obsess
Speaker 1: over something, like anything any I've seen people obsessed over.
Speaker 1: I mean, obviously drugs are an easy one to obsess
Speaker 1: over because they are addicting, but like when you get
Speaker 1: your mind fixated on that and then there's you you
Speaker 1: bring all the facets of like I'm not gonna do
Speaker 1: the scale or I'm gonna do the scale or the
Speaker 1: cupcake or the restaurants that I walk by affect me now,
Speaker 1: and then you work your way of thinking, I would imagine,
Speaker 1: and then that's hard to get out of. Yeah, And
Speaker 1: it's just such a like it's just a reset that
Speaker 1: I have that when things are going badly or when
Speaker 1: I have something in my life that is out of
Speaker 1: controller that I don't like, it's it's still my coping
Speaker 1: mechanism to just go back to this. You know, I'm
Speaker 1: rarely in a really good place in my life and
Speaker 1: really skinny or really in a bad way with my
Speaker 1: eating disorder. What how little do did you or do
Speaker 1: you eat? How how interacts we talk? Yea, yeah, okay, okay, um, yeah,
Speaker 1: I think I mean it's like yeah, like, it's just
Speaker 1: it's hard. Usually what happens is I just I wait
Speaker 1: longer and longer to eat, and then I eventually eat something.
Speaker 1: And usually the difference is how long I've waited that
Speaker 1: day to eat. So by the end of the night,
Speaker 1: I'll usually eat a meal, some salad, some food, something
Speaker 1: that makes no snacks like nothing, definitely lots, But if
Speaker 1: I'm but the more I'm like restricting, the snacks go away,
Speaker 1: if that makes sense. So the end of the meal
Speaker 1: all the end of the night still happens. And then
Speaker 1: it just is like, yeah, the daytime is usually when
Speaker 1: you don't when and now, when you were kind of
Speaker 1: when it was at its peak, would you eat all? Right?
Speaker 1: So when I was on my peak, it was like
Speaker 1: you didn't. I never really fully gave into the yeah,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean to chime in to help
Speaker 1: maybe uh you be thinner? Uh, it doesn't your isn't
Speaker 1: your metabolism going to speed up if you eat at
Speaker 1: the top of the day and then stop eating at them,
Speaker 1: than you really want to get skinny? Come on, wouldn't
Speaker 1: that be Wait? Man, I've been process and sugar well
Speaker 1: at night and productive to the goal here lists oh
Speaker 1: but that, but but with those obsessive thoughts though, I
Speaker 1: feel like part of your like ego been you know,
Speaker 1: whatever ego meeting every everyone's ego is gonna want to
Speaker 1: sabotage that plan. So it's like you're battling yourself well
Speaker 1: a head, right, That's kind of what it is. Is
Speaker 1: like I don't trust myself to do that. I wish
Speaker 1: I could trust myself to eat a big breakfast because
Speaker 1: I know that that speeds up my metabolism. But in
Speaker 1: my head, I'm like that is there's too much room
Speaker 1: for error in my day. If I do if I
Speaker 1: eat something big in the morning, I've taken up a
Speaker 1: lot of calories or a lot of food, and then
Speaker 1: now I still have the whole rest of the day
Speaker 1: that I have to get through. And I don't, you know,
Speaker 1: always trust myself that I want. So what do you
Speaker 1: think is going to happen? What's the fear? The fear
Speaker 1: great question? Um? Yeah, I think the fear is getting
Speaker 1: bigger always because people always say that, like you look great,
Speaker 1: and it's like, yeah, sometimes I'm worried about that, I
Speaker 1: don't look good, But most of the time it's I'm
Speaker 1: I'm obsessed with like not getting bigger. So you're you're
Speaker 1: not worried about looking good as much as you're worried
Speaker 1: about getting fat. Yeah have you ever been fat? Um? No?
Speaker 1: And what is fat? Yeah? Probably in in my Yeah,
Speaker 1: bigger than is maybe a better way to say it.
Speaker 1: I don't know if I But why what's so bad
Speaker 1: about that? Yeah? Again, it's like just I'm just I
Speaker 1: know obviously there's nothing bad about that, but I'm curious
Speaker 1: what you think is would be bad about it because
Speaker 1: everyone has their own. It's got to come back to
Speaker 1: the control thing. It's just something where it's like it's
Speaker 1: my You're like, um, you suck, you can't do you
Speaker 1: can't You're you're shitty at being inorexicle Issa like voice
Speaker 1: would say that in your head probably yeah or just
Speaker 1: yeah or even just like it's like, yeah, it's a
Speaker 1: good friend, it's a bad friend. That's the problem with
Speaker 1: the interext, I think is like it makes it tricks
Speaker 1: you into thinking it's your best friend, and so like
Speaker 1: when you're really when I'm having a bad day, it's
Speaker 1: like it makes me feel like, oh, it's just the
Speaker 1: two of us. But in theory, it's it's bad. It's
Speaker 1: it's a it's tricking you into thinking it's a good friend,
Speaker 1: and it's really making you. It makes me worse off.
Speaker 1: And so how are the other people in your life?
Speaker 1: You know, so you have a boyfriend, obviously you're very
Speaker 1: close with your with your mom, Like, how how do
Speaker 1: they I don't want to say like handle because that's
Speaker 1: in like it seems shitty, but like how do they
Speaker 1: If I would if I had someone in my life
Speaker 1: that I was really close with and I just saw
Speaker 1: them not eating like that would consume a percent of
Speaker 1: my relationship with that person. I feel, yes, they're yeah,
Speaker 1: you're seeing them not because it would kill meeting nutrients
Speaker 1: like it's yeah, it's a bigger and I would just
Speaker 1: spend my whole time, like you know, for instance, like
Speaker 1: this is like like yourn to be in the corner
Speaker 1: with a with a sing real with like a thing
Speaker 1: of baby. Yeah, because this looks good, right, even like
Speaker 1: with like my boyfriend smoking, like he quit because I
Speaker 1: just couldn't. I couldn't want him kill himself anymore. And
Speaker 1: I just couldn't handle it. And I was like this,
Speaker 1: you have to stop this. So like how how do
Speaker 1: the people in your life? They obviously know You're very
Speaker 1: open with talking about it, which is I think it's
Speaker 1: great and why we asked you here today. It's hard. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean my boyfriend always says, like, we're not having
Speaker 1: kids if this is like we're not I'm not marrying you,
Speaker 1: I'm not having kids if this is how it is,
Speaker 1: and so you have to get better, if not for
Speaker 1: yourself then like for me or for kids or for
Speaker 1: this family. Yeah, and he's my I mean I he's changed,
Speaker 1: He's helped me a lot. Like he's the first boyfriend
Speaker 1: who I've talked I used I didn't used to talk
Speaker 1: about it a lot, and so Luke or my boyfriend
Speaker 1: is the first person that I've really talked about it with.
Speaker 1: And it gets rid of it takes away a little
Speaker 1: bit of the power of eating disorder, and it helps
Speaker 1: him just be like, stop, you're hungry. I'm not like
Speaker 1: you haven't eaten. Sit down, we're eating, And that is
Speaker 1: that helpful for you? It is? I think it's Yeah,
Speaker 1: I'm open to it. Yeah, and I love eating with him.
Speaker 1: It's a lot easier for me to eat with him
Speaker 1: than to eat alone, which is nice. That's like a
Speaker 1: hallmark card. Yeah what what what about him being there
Speaker 1: makes it easier? Is it like having someone almost like code,
Speaker 1: like like working out with a trainer or oh my god,
Speaker 1: you're right if that's true, I would not work out
Speaker 1: if I didn't have one of those. It is a
Speaker 1: little bit like that of just like I think accountability,
Speaker 1: like maybe help me try and be accountable for this
Speaker 1: or trying is it? Or it's even just like, oh,
Speaker 1: I want to eat because you want me to eat
Speaker 1: and we're eating together and more normal. Whereas I when
Speaker 1: I'm by myself, I can let the voice take over
Speaker 1: a little bit, Whereas what I would think, I'm like, oh, no,
Speaker 1: he loves me, I love him, we love each other.
Speaker 1: Let's get out of that. I think is like your
Speaker 1: evil imaginary friend. That's an asshole totally. And when i'm yeah,
Speaker 1: or even when I'm like, if I have a busy
Speaker 1: day and I have stuff to do, it's easier to
Speaker 1: knock the voice out and be like no, no, no,
Speaker 1: I need food to like power me forward and yeah.
Speaker 1: So the voice comes in a lot at dark times
Speaker 1: or a lonely times, which is why I do think
Speaker 1: for anyone with the needing disorder, if you can open
Speaker 1: up to one person, it does make a big difference.
Speaker 1: How does it affect um? So you said you were
Speaker 1: passing out in the beginning, it's been about five five years,
Speaker 1: you said five years and five year reunions. It's worse happening. Okay,
Speaker 1: So wait, how old are you? Well? I guess five
Speaker 1: years since I graduated, so that would be like I
Speaker 1: was when I was more of like a freshman sophomore.
Speaker 1: So it's actually yeah, I'm like eight years, eight years. Okay, yeah,
Speaker 1: I'm I'm twenty seven. Okay, okay, because at first I
Speaker 1: was I thought I was, like, are usually twenty four
Speaker 1: younger than I thought? I was like, Jesus, you look
Speaker 1: very young. Okay, good? Yeah, well hey, you know, yeah,
Speaker 1: it's how does that fact your sex drive, sex life,
Speaker 1: that area? Does it? I don't. Yeah, it's it's weird.
Speaker 1: It's like it definitely used to. I used to. Just
Speaker 1: I was at a place where I'd like stripped all
Speaker 1: pleasure out of my life for sure. I never would come.
Speaker 1: I wouldn't. I wouldn't even myself even by myself. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and I was in college. It was just like a
Speaker 1: I was so depressed. It was a very dark time.
Speaker 1: And I'm not as depressed now. I'm just still kind
Speaker 1: of dealing with the lingering effects of it. So, yeah,
Speaker 1: my my sex drive is probably worse if I'm like
Speaker 1: really hungry and just I don't know it and I'm cranky.
Speaker 1: But in general, it's it's a double edged sword because
Speaker 1: if I don't feel great about my body, then I'm
Speaker 1: also like I was gonna say, yeah, it's it's impossible
Speaker 1: to have enjoy sex when you don't enjoy your own body.
Speaker 1: I can't. Um, I mean you can fake it. It's
Speaker 1: easy to fake, but it's fun. Yeah again, And having
Speaker 1: a boyfriend who I love very much and who I'm
Speaker 1: totally myself with is better because when I was like
Speaker 1: with yeah, with other people, other partners would be an
Speaker 1: assult of or you couldn't talk to them about or
Speaker 1: you just don't want to or yeah I didn't, I
Speaker 1: never wanted to, and then I never like if that's
Speaker 1: a wall that I was putting up, I just yeah,
Speaker 1: I never would really go fully enjoy sex or yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: you wouldn't be vulnerable in present, like to your fullest
Speaker 1: extent with them totally. Now we get upon ourselves to
Speaker 1: joke about your eating water. That's okay, you're a comedian, um,
Speaker 1: But do you feel like dating a comedian has helped?
Speaker 1: Because I know normally it's like a nightmare, but I
Speaker 1: also date a comedian, and I find it help more
Speaker 1: helpful than not helpful. Like do you guys, are you
Speaker 1: able to joke about it with your boyfriend or yea
Speaker 1: more serious what's it like? Because it's our humor around it.
Speaker 1: I love joking about it and he really doesn't like
Speaker 1: it that actually makes a lot. It doesn't think it's funny.
Speaker 1: He doesn't because you know, I think like he loves
Speaker 1: he loves me and like and it's like you getting
Speaker 1: away from the topic or seriousness of it totally. And
Speaker 1: like you said, it's like a cigarettes to you. And
Speaker 1: so for him, he wants it gone. And he's always like,
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna entertain this like a brand. It's like,
Speaker 1: it's not for me, it's not funny, right, And how
Speaker 1: about your mom? Like, what's what's the I mean, does
Speaker 1: she know she knows the full extent I'm sure if
Speaker 1: you've been hospital realized she knows the full extent um.
Speaker 1: But my dad died a couple of years ago and
Speaker 1: it's kind of that's top of mind. So I don't
Speaker 1: think I tried to, Okay, my mom doesn't. Yeah, she's like,
Speaker 1: I don't give a ship right now? Can we not
Speaker 1: talk about that while he was alive? So before make
Speaker 1: me when you're in college? What was what was that? Like?
Speaker 1: I get, Yeah, it was it was. I was so
Speaker 1: angry and sad and I didn't like whenever my parents
Speaker 1: talked about it, I'd snap and I didn't want to
Speaker 1: because you were hungry because I know I probably get
Speaker 1: so dude, get A lot of women do, like a lot,
Speaker 1: I know a lot of people do. Because you're like,
Speaker 1: it's your insulin levels spike and not spike. I think
Speaker 1: it's more than that. I mean, like you have a disease.
Speaker 1: But yeah, well so you're probably meaner than most. Yes,
Speaker 1: I was mean. I was the meanest of all. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I was. I was. I was mean. I think it
Speaker 1: would mean thing did did you ever? Because they're like
Speaker 1: something that you did that you you said that, You're like,
Speaker 1: oh ship, I look think back. I know. God, Yeah,
Speaker 1: I was just I was just not easy to be around.
Speaker 1: And I think for a while that scared me to
Speaker 1: tell people about meeting disorder because I was like paroled
Speaker 1: and that's just not fun. It doesn't make any I
Speaker 1: can't enjoy yourself around that person. And yeah, and I'm
Speaker 1: I'm just I'm very competitive and so when people are
Speaker 1: like when people when my parents would like try to
Speaker 1: make me eat, I would just make me even more. Yeah.
Speaker 1: It seems to me the things that I've heard about
Speaker 1: interact how it's handled in like how I've seen it
Speaker 1: on television movies in terms of like a more of
Speaker 1: a documentary style aspect of it. It is like this
Speaker 1: competition with yourself or with the with the bad part
Speaker 1: of yourself, with that voice in your head. Yeah, totally.
Speaker 1: My therapist always tells me I met war with myself,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, who's winning? Am I winning? Or am
Speaker 1: I winning? I mean that sounds almost like not that
Speaker 1: you have schizophrenia, but that seems like almost is like
Speaker 1: what's what's the explanation for this other voice? I mean,
Speaker 1: we all have a voice inside our head, but it's
Speaker 1: it's not so take over for everyone, but sometimes a
Speaker 1: periods I think in every person's life right where it
Speaker 1: takes over for like a week and it's gone. Yours
Speaker 1: is like oh no, no I do. Then maybe I'm
Speaker 1: just in between you guys now Oh gosh, yeah I
Speaker 1: I I don't know where it comes from. It's just
Speaker 1: because I'm fascinated to see, like almost how a therapist
Speaker 1: like explained it to you, Like, so you walk into therapy,
Speaker 1: like when did you start getting going to therapy? Wasn't
Speaker 1: because of the eating disorder? Was it because of something else? Yeah,
Speaker 1: it started with eating disorder, and then it's it's just
Speaker 1: always been on and off with people for different things. Okay, yeah,
Speaker 1: and then so you walk in and what's kind of
Speaker 1: do you remember the first session or the kind of
Speaker 1: first things that the therapist told you? Yeah, because I had, like,
Speaker 1: oh I had just the worst. I Yeah, if I
Speaker 1: were in a comedian, I think I'd want to be
Speaker 1: a therapist, just because there were so many bad, terrible
Speaker 1: eating disorder therapists in college that really it was free,
Speaker 1: it was a clinic free. Actually I had a good, well,
Speaker 1: I had one experience of that one was bad, but
Speaker 1: one was good. With THEE in college, it was like
Speaker 1: the favorite one I ever had out of the real world.
Speaker 1: Like these people, that's great. I mean I think that's
Speaker 1: great because yeah, day what did they say? Like what
Speaker 1: do the what made them bad? I just remember her
Speaker 1: being so like hyper and I was so dark and low,
Speaker 1: and I just remember her being like, if you had to,
Speaker 1: I mean, think of the most magical food you could
Speaker 1: think of shut the I was like, oh gross, yeah,
Speaker 1: what would you want to eat? Pancakes? Waffles? Think of
Speaker 1: your ideal breakfast. And I remember at that time like
Speaker 1: what she said to you, My breakfast is nothing. I'm antorectic,
Speaker 1: bit nothing. Same page, do you hear the words that
Speaker 1: coming out of my mouth. I left. I went through
Speaker 1: a series of like probably four or five, and then
Speaker 1: I landed on one who was amazing and I still
Speaker 1: keep in touch with her, and she she was intorectic,
Speaker 1: which I think is there it is. She wasn't just
Speaker 1: believe in yourself. She was like, I get it. We're
Speaker 1: not doing cheese and that's okay. That's so funny. Do
Speaker 1: you remember anything that she said specifically other than like
Speaker 1: the war within yourself? That that's interesting, Like, but is
Speaker 1: there anything else she said that You're like, oh fuck, yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: my um. Well so it's so it's all goes in phases.
Speaker 1: You know. Back then it was really learning how to
Speaker 1: eat again. So she was just kind of like a
Speaker 1: very much a food coach of like how much to
Speaker 1: eat and what how I could wean myself back onto
Speaker 1: like food. And then now my therapist, you know, I'm
Speaker 1: I'm more comfortable with food, I know what to eat,
Speaker 1: I know about food, and so my therapist now yeah
Speaker 1: I know food. Uh and yeah, now my therapist is
Speaker 1: much more about emotionally, like why am I turning to this?
Speaker 1: And it is there we can't get rid of whatever
Speaker 1: is in me that's turning to this, So instead, let's
Speaker 1: find whatever this is in me? Where else can I
Speaker 1: turn it to? Yeah, like what other outlets comedy? Comedy helps? Yeah,
Speaker 1: isn't though, um, like when you go to therapy or
Speaker 1: I think going to therapy is is an attempt to
Speaker 1: like gain control over how your brain works and your
Speaker 1: thoughts and kind of that control right of this. I
Speaker 1: have this voice in my head and it's it's winning
Speaker 1: sometimes and I wanted to so, but isn't that kind
Speaker 1: of like you're you're I don't know where I was
Speaker 1: going with that. I had some interrexy metaphor that was
Speaker 1: really brilliant, but I lost it. But like, I don't know,
Speaker 1: it's it's I feel like everyone's always constantly trying to
Speaker 1: control their thoughts in their brain and that what is
Speaker 1: what therapy is. Yeah, so it's like that it's not
Speaker 1: inorexy obviously, but like it's but like I'm yeah, I
Speaker 1: don't know, I know people obsess over like controlling the
Speaker 1: way they think totally, Like that's kind of therapy. Yeah,
Speaker 1: so I went on tandem. No, no, no, it's true
Speaker 1: because my Yeah, it is like a way to be
Speaker 1: like I have all these thoughts spiraling, can we like
Speaker 1: dump them and then yeah, you can figure out why
Speaker 1: I'm thinking this? Okay, so wait, consensus of the room,
Speaker 1: the thought the voice in your head is usually the
Speaker 1: same as like you're like, because my I had the
Speaker 1: voice in my head. But the voice in my head
Speaker 1: is saying the same thing as I'm doing, like we're
Speaker 1: on the side, we're on the same page. No, never,
Speaker 1: that's my anxiety. That's why that's anxiety. But is it
Speaker 1: never on the same page or oh no, no, it
Speaker 1: is it is and I wouldn't even say or say so,
Speaker 1: and more positive than negative. Yes, But my I when
Speaker 1: I have a panic attack and my my, I have
Speaker 1: a voice in my head that literally says like you're
Speaker 1: a fucking idiot, right, and that I mean? And then
Speaker 1: and then I would think therapy is you know, you
Speaker 1: try to my my personal goal for a therapist would
Speaker 1: be to like fucking shut that voice up or understand
Speaker 1: it by the understanding that you control it. Okay, And
Speaker 1: then voice in your head, how often is it say?
Speaker 1: Is it like on board with kind of like the
Speaker 1: what you're doing? Yeah, I mean I think unfortunately any
Speaker 1: time I eat that's different than the voice in my head.
Speaker 1: So you the very alt of you eating, is you
Speaker 1: going against what your head is telling you every time? Yeah?
Speaker 1: But what is your voice say in your head whatever
Speaker 1: I'm doing? Really? Yeah, I mean most times, I mean,
Speaker 1: the only thing I'll get hard on myself is like
Speaker 1: I usually think I'm the only thing I will dwell
Speaker 1: on things that voice come in or not. Obsessive compulsive
Speaker 1: is different because uh and alssa, we've talked about that.
Speaker 1: But that's obsessive compulsive. Isn't my brain telling me something different?
Speaker 1: That's my brain thinking of every possible uh answer to
Speaker 1: any question that is posed. So it's like a rat
Speaker 1: running through like a labyrinth constantly. It's just trying to
Speaker 1: find every different answer. You the negative. It's not no,
Speaker 1: it's not negative. It's not going against it's not saying
Speaker 1: like you're bad. The only thing that sometimes I'll get
Speaker 1: down on myself about is uh, laziness, Like I always
Speaker 1: think I'm being lazy, even though I'm pretty much never
Speaker 1: I was gonna say, but that right, that's the thing
Speaker 1: that's the only one, but that you're not being like
Speaker 1: you're very hard worker. Yeah, but sometimes I'm being like
Speaker 1: I honestly think that like I should like never be
Speaker 1: watching a TV show unless the TV show us something
Speaker 1: I have to study for something I'm doing. But I
Speaker 1: don't necessarily the world. I mean that was years ago, Alessa, No,
Speaker 1: I agree. I think that that's just ambition almost, I think,
Speaker 1: I mean, it's it's get to the point where like
Speaker 1: I mean, I sometimes think that I don't enjoy, like
Speaker 1: I don't like really like having fun because I think
Speaker 1: it's a waste of time. I know that, but that's confused. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I drink that you do have fun. That's why I
Speaker 1: drink that was fun. Yeah, but we were you like
Speaker 1: doing fun thing, but we were there on business, right,
Speaker 1: you like taking business trips and be having productive fun
Speaker 1: on business trips. Yeah. I really like doing work. Like
Speaker 1: if there's a day and I don't get any work done,
Speaker 1: like that's a that's a real problem. I agree. That's
Speaker 1: why I hate Sundays because I feel you don't have
Speaker 1: a voice in your head do stuff and don't do
Speaker 1: everything's called I'm like, why is everything close? No, if
Speaker 1: you have a voice to your head saying you're lazy
Speaker 1: piece of ship, because that's what that's why I can't
Speaker 1: not do work during a bit, like I can't waste
Speaker 1: a whole day. It doesn't say you're a lazy piece
Speaker 1: of ship. It just says, yo, get up, what are
Speaker 1: you doing? Like it's not it's not so me. I'd
Speaker 1: love to be friends. You want to be friends with? Uh? Well,
Speaker 1: I mean yeah, it's just it's just like it's just like, Yo,
Speaker 1: you have a lot to do, and you should do it.
Speaker 1: It's a nice coach. But yeah, but sometimes you know,
Speaker 1: you got a ticket nap, I know, something like true,
Speaker 1: I just I'm very tired. No, I know, I don't
Speaker 1: know why. But your voice in your head is a
Speaker 1: very healthy voice. Yeah, I mean, I guess I wish.
Speaker 1: I I just yeah, I wish I could have a
Speaker 1: little more fun. But anyway, don't we all? I know,
Speaker 1: well I feel that way, especially since my dad Dad,
Speaker 1: I had this obsession with like we're going to die
Speaker 1: so soon, and so any day we're not doing anything.
Speaker 1: It's like I'm just like this that's a whole different ballgame.
Speaker 1: But yeah, yeah, how did he die? In expectedly? He
Speaker 1: got brain cancer, which is like I didn't know at
Speaker 1: the time, but it's just very aggressive terminal cancer. So
Speaker 1: he was super healthy, Like, yeah, he had similar eating
Speaker 1: habits to me. He was very like fit and exercised
Speaker 1: a lot and didn't he was like a vegetarian before
Speaker 1: it was a thing, was before anyone was. He was
Speaker 1: the guys, we should just not eat me, like I
Speaker 1: know what I mean. My aunt was a vegetarian before
Speaker 1: I knew anyone who was doing that. Yeah, before it
Speaker 1: was a fat before it was a Greek too, So
Speaker 1: it's like it was it wasn't a thing for the
Speaker 1: Greek because food is big, especially at least fish. He
Speaker 1: didn't have. Did he have an eating disorder of any
Speaker 1: kind of any image issues or not? I don't think
Speaker 1: he would have ever said that. No, but you think
Speaker 1: he did. Yeah, I think. I think. I definitely think
Speaker 1: my yeah, I think we have similar Is it is
Speaker 1: it or can it be hereditary eating disorder? Oh? Really?
Speaker 1: I was thinking because it seems like anything that's like
Speaker 1: a kind of like, I mean, is it categorized as
Speaker 1: a mental illness? It is? Yeah, it's in the D
Speaker 1: D D C M D S M right. Yeah, so
Speaker 1: I was gonna say, I was like, mathon that seems
Speaker 1: so but an inside chick people got it. People are like, OK, um, yeah,
Speaker 1: because I was gonna say that seems like it's and
Speaker 1: your mom is totally fine with us. Yeah, and that's
Speaker 1: been such a blessing. Her. Whole side of the family
Speaker 1: is just they're great with food, They're great with body image.
Speaker 1: They yeah, they and they're supportive to you, like they
Speaker 1: don't like if have you ever been at a family
Speaker 1: dinner and not e eaten? And is it weird? Is
Speaker 1: it awkward? Is everyone like what's wrong? You know? You
Speaker 1: learn not to say you learn like tricks, but it'll
Speaker 1: never look like I'm not. She has a lot of
Speaker 1: big persons. I just wait, what are some of the tricks?
Speaker 1: Do you mind talking about that dog? Yes? Yes, sit
Speaker 1: by trash can, that's yeah. I mean always carry trash can.
Speaker 1: That's kind of a little trick of mine. I eat
Speaker 1: by a bangster. Literally, I'm just imagine sitting at the
Speaker 1: end of the table going you open your mouth, but
Speaker 1: you're not actually putting in your mouth. You're putting on
Speaker 1: the other side of your face into a trash. It's like,
Speaker 1: we know what you're doing. No, but like like and
Speaker 1: do and does do you have moments where people are like,
Speaker 1: we know what you're doing? That would make me angry,
Speaker 1: like that would make if someone was onto me, I
Speaker 1: get pissed. Agreed, No, agreed, And I don't like people
Speaker 1: being onto me. And so I, yeah, I eat. Holidays
Speaker 1: are hard. I usually like exercise a lot before the
Speaker 1: meal so that I'm hungry. And when I'm really hungry,
Speaker 1: I can eat. I really can, like I can eat
Speaker 1: like a fairly normal person as long as the food
Speaker 1: is good. I mean, I'm gonna a better place for sure.
Speaker 1: Where Like like back in the day holidays, I used
Speaker 1: to have to really plan out exactly what I was
Speaker 1: going to eat exactly, And now it's like, no, I know,
Speaker 1: as long as like I there are vegetables there and
Speaker 1: there's food that I'll eat, I'll be I'll be fine.
Speaker 1: So what what are foods that you absolutely will not
Speaker 1: no matter what eat? How much time to you? Man?
Speaker 1: I can read everything you're saying by your facial expressions. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean I don't eat meat. I don't eat dairy.
Speaker 1: I don't eat I mean that's good. I mean, well
Speaker 1: those are kind of too things. Don't watch a lot
Speaker 1: of documentaries lately. You don't really need those things anyway. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I agree. Um, And then beyond that. Ideally love to
Speaker 1: not eat gluten, but I don't make a big fuss
Speaker 1: over it. Um. And that's I would think a lot
Speaker 1: of progress since from where you were, when you were
Speaker 1: totally oh yeah, with the disorder, I'd just be it
Speaker 1: was weirder. I would just eat only like cottage cheese
Speaker 1: and break fruit and stuff. I had a much weird
Speaker 1: And now I read this The Crazy Sexy Diet. Have
Speaker 1: you guys ever read a car Yes, oh my god,
Speaker 1: my friend gave you that to me years ago, sounds
Speaker 1: like a diet books No, okay, okay, okay, to be
Speaker 1: fair to fair, this was a woman who, like she's
Speaker 1: very inspiring, she cured herself of stomach cancer through diet,
Speaker 1: and so it said that the name sounds like trashier
Speaker 1: than the book. And that book helped me learn how
Speaker 1: to not obsess almost over like calories, because it was
Speaker 1: more like these are just like foods that are good.
Speaker 1: Just eat these until you're full and then like yeah.
Speaker 1: And I think that book helped me a lot to
Speaker 1: to not focus as much on the yeah, the exact
Speaker 1: calories that I was eating, and more just be like,
Speaker 1: listen to your body, trust your body, and if you're
Speaker 1: eating good foods, then you can trust your body more.
Speaker 1: It's hard to trust your body when you're eating like
Speaker 1: artificial foods or foods and aren't sure. I mean, I
Speaker 1: think that's a great way. And I mean, like you
Speaker 1: can tell a lot of like I mean, you know,
Speaker 1: I am a doctor, as we established earlier, but like
Speaker 1: you know when you're not doing well. I like I've
Speaker 1: been through times when I was not like feeding my
Speaker 1: body like the right things because I was really depressed.
Speaker 1: But like you can tell my like the tone of
Speaker 1: your skin and like you don't like everything looks like healthy. Yeah,
Speaker 1: you know you don't look like you can I mean
Speaker 1: you can tell outwardly when someone's like poisoning themselves are
Speaker 1: or starving themselves kind of well, I mean we've I
Speaker 1: feel like we've all been at the gym and there's
Speaker 1: the girl that's bones, barely skin totally like just and
Speaker 1: it's well, I got in the gym in Harlem. So
Speaker 1: now you've been to Aim, which there was that person
Speaker 1: or I've never seen a man that that like that,
Speaker 1: but I have seen um women that just they're all
Speaker 1: every time, I like, they're always there. You've seen the
Speaker 1: memory now in New York and like, I mean nothing,
Speaker 1: as you know, the way people look at people who
Speaker 1: are obese that is not I don't that doesn't make
Speaker 1: me like yeah, but like it doesn't like hurt my insides.
Speaker 1: The way looking at someone who's too thin does it
Speaker 1: hurts my actually, like yeah, my bones. And I want
Speaker 1: to go and be like you need help, and like
Speaker 1: you need it immediately because it's something where someone is
Speaker 1: suffering but you can see it, I know. And then
Speaker 1: when fat people people are suffering too. I mean, just
Speaker 1: watch my six hunder pound life, Like all those people
Speaker 1: need therapy so bad. It's the same thing. It's just
Speaker 1: the problem is the opposite taking it. Are you dealing
Speaker 1: with it by eating? Or are you dealing with it
Speaker 1: by not eating? Or are you dealing it with it
Speaker 1: by drinking? Or yeah, because I'm reading Hunger by Rock
Speaker 1: sand Gay right now, if you but I just wonderful
Speaker 1: and I love her. The book has been very I
Speaker 1: feel ignorant for not even knowing it before, but just
Speaker 1: reading the book is like, oh my god, this is
Speaker 1: a new book. But I guess I just mean the
Speaker 1: idea of obesity. It is so similar to interrexy it's like, oh,
Speaker 1: this is the same thing the food is. It's no
Speaker 1: longer about the food, it's it's being used as a
Speaker 1: vessel for something else. Yeah. Yeah, because I mean I
Speaker 1: think people are really like uh rude almost about like
Speaker 1: over eating. Um. But I think people are more likely though,
Speaker 1: to say to your face. I had a boss once
Speaker 1: who she was just naturally thin. She hardly had time
Speaker 1: to eat because she was so busy, but she um.
Speaker 1: She remember, she would always say to me, She's like, man,
Speaker 1: when you're when you're thin, you're just thin. Building her.
Speaker 1: I knew her daughter and the same buill just very scrawny,
Speaker 1: you know, not scrawny but right. But they people always
Speaker 1: say to like always to their face. And I know
Speaker 1: people treat overway people like this too, but it's I
Speaker 1: hear all the time when you're thin, everyone's like, eat,
Speaker 1: oh my god, eat a sandwich. What are you doing?
Speaker 1: Like they're so are mad? No, But other I or
Speaker 1: I think regular people too though, because I would say
Speaker 1: I would Actually when she pointed that out to me,
Speaker 1: I kind of noticed like people who were so fit,
Speaker 1: we're like buff that were like, oh my god, you
Speaker 1: need to eat. It's like she's like, I'm fine. She didn't.
Speaker 1: She happened to just naturally her body, that's how her
Speaker 1: body was made. But she was like, people are so
Speaker 1: much quicker to say out loud to your face in
Speaker 1: front of all these people, like wow, you look really thin,
Speaker 1: because it's like almost like considered like a compliment but
Speaker 1: a positive problem. Like it's kind of like, you know,
Speaker 1: where you know, Asian people are considered the model minority,
Speaker 1: so like it's almost okay to be like Asians greatest,
Speaker 1: even though that's still racist. You know, it's kind of
Speaker 1: in the same in the same family would as we
Speaker 1: say a comic say, I agree, it's almost just like
Speaker 1: just stop talking about oury, Like it's just don't don't
Speaker 1: mention what I'm eating, don't talk to me about for anyone.
Speaker 1: Do you find that though? Do you find people commenting
Speaker 1: on your on your either that you look great and
Speaker 1: then when people say look good because you're sorry, I
Speaker 1: thought you look great. But does that How do you
Speaker 1: feel when someone says that to you? Yeah, I think
Speaker 1: it's it's like it is that it feels good always
Speaker 1: of course to like I like hearing that I look good,
Speaker 1: But all I can hear when I hear that is
Speaker 1: just like okay, well you gotta like whatever you're doing,
Speaker 1: like you have to keep it up, you know, or
Speaker 1: like or like maybe I wasn't looking good a month ago,
Speaker 1: or like what you know, whatever it is. I can
Speaker 1: never just take a compliment at face value of because
Speaker 1: I think I don't feel yet in a place where
Speaker 1: I'm like so healthy that it's I'm still constantly you
Speaker 1: have to love you have to be like into yourself
Speaker 1: and love yourself and be cool and like be nice
Speaker 1: to yourself. Yeah, or I'm I think I'm realizing, like, well,
Speaker 1: for me, body positivity would really be if no matter
Speaker 1: what my body looked like, I felt good about myself.
Speaker 1: Does that make like that I've that I value myself
Speaker 1: because of a set that I did that was funny,
Speaker 1: or because or because of I was a good friend,
Speaker 1: or because whatever it is, I was a good girlfriend,
Speaker 1: just because you are you and you're great. I mean,
Speaker 1: it doesn't it's it seems like for you it's like
Speaker 1: always relying. It doesn't need to rely on any outside
Speaker 1: things ever. Do you feel though with I remember one
Speaker 1: thing that she wasn't a therapist, she was she let's
Speaker 1: drag her. Oh, I don't. I mean, I hope I
Speaker 1: go to the grave with ever seen this specific person again.
Speaker 1: But but I thought it was interesting. But I think
Speaker 1: it was more damaging than helpful when she told me this,
Speaker 1: when I was like forcing myself to throw up because
Speaker 1: I wasn't trying to be I wasn't trying to be skinny.
Speaker 1: I just want to control over something. And uh, She's like,
Speaker 1: imagine you being a baby, Like, imagine Christina when she
Speaker 1: was three. Now, imagine somebody sticking their fingers down Chris
Speaker 1: little three yorld Christina's throat and forcing her to barf
Speaker 1: up the food she just ate. I was like, that's horrible,
Speaker 1: and she's like, yeah, so stop doing it, Like basically
Speaker 1: that was her approach, and I was like that didn't
Speaker 1: help at all. Yeah, that's like make guilting me about
Speaker 1: anything is never going to get me to fix. Now
Speaker 1: I want to do it even more longer because you
Speaker 1: did that to me, Like fuck, you did did the
Speaker 1: bad That's why those bad therapists that you had did
Speaker 1: they ever. Yeah, either the just believe or like you're
Speaker 1: really harming your inner child. Yeah yeah, you're you're harming
Speaker 1: you're inner child, or just yeah, I think the key
Speaker 1: to anything, it's just like listen. Like any therapist who
Speaker 1: didn't listen to me and just tried like giving me
Speaker 1: something or making fixing me. I think my therapists now
Speaker 1: so great because she'll just listen and she won't judge me,
Speaker 1: or she won't like yeah, she won't say I'm doing
Speaker 1: badly or I'm veering off course or I'm relapsing. It's
Speaker 1: just like okay, well, let's like kind of let's see
Speaker 1: where we can see what it is, and yeah, this
Speaker 1: is what it is, and let's see what path we
Speaker 1: want to go on and kind of have that more
Speaker 1: calm approach to it, not like wow, you're going to
Speaker 1: do it again, gene like feel it's gonna elongate it, agreed.
Speaker 1: I mean it just never helps. And so like okay,
Speaker 1: so now like when you're when you're frustrated or when
Speaker 1: you're feeling anxious, does that exacerbate the anorexia? Yeah, I
Speaker 1: would say flares. I would say flares come with like
Speaker 1: any type of thing that's out of my control. So
Speaker 1: if it's depression, if I'm feeling wait way too sad,
Speaker 1: and then it's like okay, let me try to this
Speaker 1: is one thing today that will make me feel happy,
Speaker 1: or you have clinical depression. Um, I've never I've never
Speaker 1: gone on meds for it, but I've yeah, I've dealt
Speaker 1: with things aren't great. I hear you say with me. Okay, um,
Speaker 1: yes again, going back to my college was like, oh,
Speaker 1: I was so depressed in college. I probably could have
Speaker 1: used some meds in college. But now I feel I
Speaker 1: feel more like it's just I'm sad a lot, but
Speaker 1: I don't feel I live in darkness all the time.
Speaker 1: If that makes sense. You know that perfect, that's my
Speaker 1: standard of fucking happiness. Damn cave everything. Oh god, that's
Speaker 1: really okay. Um? And so uh did your your dad
Speaker 1: did your time tie one year ago or two years ago?
Speaker 1: Two years in October? Two years ago? Okay? And I
Speaker 1: know you mentioned like where were you with with the
Speaker 1: anorexia at that time, like when he was sick, did
Speaker 1: it start to get really bad again? Or because I
Speaker 1: know you mentioned there was a big correlation between those
Speaker 1: two things. Yeah, pretty much the minute. I mean, my
Speaker 1: dad was like my my parents, I was almost probably
Speaker 1: way too reliant on them. I was so dependent on
Speaker 1: them I went all the time. I really hadn't built
Speaker 1: a life for myself yet New York. I was still
Speaker 1: really attached to them, and so to have my dad
Speaker 1: and then my mom kind of both be like quickly
Speaker 1: taken away from me. I I just it was your mom. Sorry, No,
Speaker 1: my mom didn't die. She's wonderful, she's alive, she's great,
Speaker 1: but she I and just you kind of immediately it
Speaker 1: was like, oh, my mom is a fragile child like
Speaker 1: and she needs she needs my help more than I need.
Speaker 1: I can't have bothered her about like I feel that
Speaker 1: she's like I'm losing my husband, you know, so yeah,
Speaker 1: um and pretty much yeah, right away, I just started
Speaker 1: old habits and I was living in that. I moved
Speaker 1: home to take care of him, and so, oh my gosh,
Speaker 1: that's a lot your shoulders on your heart, it's a lot. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and brain cancer just it was like the ultimate of
Speaker 1: no control. I mean basically my dad one day could
Speaker 1: read the next day like I was like, I don't
Speaker 1: know why, but I can't read anymore, or same with
Speaker 1: moving arms or legs. It just all happened so fast.
Speaker 1: And forget things. He would forget so many different ways.
Speaker 1: I feel we gotta I don't know what's worse a person,
Speaker 1: But my dad never until the last day. He always
Speaker 1: knew who we were and he didn't aside from like
Speaker 1: little questions he would ask over and over, mainly it
Speaker 1: was physical that he lost control. Yeah, so his brain
Speaker 1: kind of stayed. Seeing your father fun that, right, of course,
Speaker 1: especially because I know, like he was such a physical
Speaker 1: person who loved like running, and because you would post
Speaker 1: so many pictures about him. Yeah. Yeah, I think that
Speaker 1: was the hardest thing to watch. Was just like, oh
Speaker 1: this is this is Yeah. As much as I would
Speaker 1: have loved to have my dad for longer, it's like
Speaker 1: I didn't to see him like that was right, And
Speaker 1: I mean, you see, it's I think that it was
Speaker 1: nice like that. You guys seemed like you were so close,
Speaker 1: so it's like you really valued and used that time
Speaker 1: while he was alive. Yeah, we did. We did. Weirdly,
Speaker 1: I was feeling really nostalgic for those times recently, you know,
Speaker 1: and it's just yeah, they were really bad, but we
Speaker 1: were all together and it Yeah. So anyway, definitely, and
Speaker 1: my dad too, was we put him kind of on
Speaker 1: a restrictive diet, so I just was like, I'm doing
Speaker 1: it with you, you know, it was very it was
Speaker 1: like something to do together, but really it was also
Speaker 1: the interacts of sneaking in pretty much. But it was yeah,
Speaker 1: because for brain cancer, there was a lot of like
Speaker 1: diet tips and things that sugar is like cancer feeds
Speaker 1: on sugar or something that's moving. So so that's why
Speaker 1: I'm obsessed with, Like, well, it's really interesting the power
Speaker 1: of food what it can do. My my old roommate Alex,
Speaker 1: her mother passed from cancer. But when she originally got diagnosed,
Speaker 1: she went vegan and that gave her so many that
Speaker 1: gave her Like it wasn't brain cancer because that's so
Speaker 1: aggressive it, but but the doctors were like a couple
Speaker 1: of years or a year or something like that, and
Speaker 1: she so much longer than that because of her diet.
Speaker 1: It's really cool what food can do. It is and
Speaker 1: it's a good reminder to of like food and brain
Speaker 1: are so connected, so so like I do need to
Speaker 1: eat because I like your food. Your brain needs food
Speaker 1: to function. Yeah, m hmm, yeah. What would you have
Speaker 1: anybody ever asked you for advice on hey, I want
Speaker 1: to beat this, what do you suggest like an interrextsy
Speaker 1: or believe me or some type of eating disorder, Like,
Speaker 1: what would you say? Usually people come to to me
Speaker 1: who love someone who is dealing with it, and they
Speaker 1: want to know how to help that person. Um, that's
Speaker 1: it more difficult because they're not coming from a place
Speaker 1: of understanding necessarily, even if they do understand and love you,
Speaker 1: I love that person. If your boyfriend loves you, but
Speaker 1: he if he's not interacting himself or has something similar,
Speaker 1: he can't fully connect fully for that. And I really
Speaker 1: do think the biggest step is, like the person needs
Speaker 1: to really want to heal, because yeah, you're just not
Speaker 1: gonna no matter what you do. I do think that
Speaker 1: tough love sometimes is helpful and like even if you're
Speaker 1: not ready, I hate to love, but tough it's it sucks. Yeah.
Speaker 1: So I think my made advice. I know love that
Speaker 1: those words don't go together like nice love. Yeah yeah.
Speaker 1: So I usually just tell people to like, uh, make
Speaker 1: sure that they have someone in their life that they
Speaker 1: can talk to it. I think the loneliness and the
Speaker 1: isolation is something that can keep it going. I had
Speaker 1: a friend, one of my best friends, she was just
Speaker 1: like I remember one day she was like, you suck,
Speaker 1: when I was like really not. She's like you're not fun,
Speaker 1: You're like not yourself. I don't like hanging out with
Speaker 1: you anymore, Like you're you're totally different and like like
Speaker 1: stop your and and that was probably one of the
Speaker 1: biggest things that stuck with me, was like, oh, this
Speaker 1: is taking a hit on like the part of me
Speaker 1: that actually matters, like my personality and my friends. And yeah,
Speaker 1: that was probably one of my turning points. I'm like
Speaker 1: all right, yeah, I don't need and that was probably
Speaker 1: really helpful to hear you need to hear it, yeah,
Speaker 1: versus focusing on I think, focus less on the physical
Speaker 1: and more on like what's causing this and try to
Speaker 1: get to that before you get to like eat a
Speaker 1: grilled cheese. It's like I'm not eating. And how long
Speaker 1: have you been How long have you been with your boyfriend?
Speaker 1: We've been together on and off basically, right, we've been
Speaker 1: together right after my dad died and then we were
Speaker 1: friends and enough before then as well. Okay, so a
Speaker 1: couple of years okay, and he has said to you
Speaker 1: that he doesn't want to move forward in terms of
Speaker 1: like going the next step and related you guys live together,
Speaker 1: not yet, okay, would you or would he want you
Speaker 1: guys love each other so much? Is really sweet. Would
Speaker 1: he move in with would he go that step with you?
Speaker 1: Kind of getting a handle on it? I can't do
Speaker 1: you have a handle lotter? I think you do. I do,
Speaker 1: I do. I seems like you do, but I don't know.
Speaker 1: I definitely feel like I have a handle on it,
Speaker 1: but I haven't yet like picked it up and thrown
Speaker 1: it away, you know, because you gotta want to. Yeah,
Speaker 1: but that's the handles of it. Seems like a battle
Speaker 1: that you're still very president like in fighting in, but
Speaker 1: you're doing the fighting. You haven't like just like let
Speaker 1: it take over. Yeah, that's how I feel. I feel
Speaker 1: like I'm still it's still a conscious battle every day,
Speaker 1: but I'm not letting. I'm trying to not let it win. Yeah. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I think my boyfriend, the big thing that he says
Speaker 1: is just like babies. He's very big on like, I'm
Speaker 1: not bringing kids into the world with your eating habits
Speaker 1: the way that they are because he doesn't want Because
Speaker 1: you know, I think that that is a very fair thing.
Speaker 1: Yeah sure, And I mean, do you even go this
Speaker 1: far in your head with thinking of like, okay, so
Speaker 1: I can see myself down the road getting to a
Speaker 1: place where it's no longer part of my life or
Speaker 1: I can or do you not want to feel it?
Speaker 1: Feel like going there in your head? It's I'm getting
Speaker 1: it's just so weird, it's so a part of me
Speaker 1: that I can't actually imagine. Uh, like even just being pregnant.
Speaker 1: Do you guys get scared about being pregnant and gaining
Speaker 1: I have no, I'm not gonna. I don't. I get scared.
Speaker 1: I get scared about the part. I mean, I don't
Speaker 1: know what's going on in my life, but I get
Speaker 1: scared about the part where the baby's got to come out.
Speaker 1: That's one thing that scares me. Hurt, you'll be fine, Yeah,
Speaker 1: no drugs anyway, My mom says, when you give you drugs,
Speaker 1: you can't feel, because she had one with the drugs
Speaker 1: and one without the drugs. And yeah, and that's when
Speaker 1: you said she felt the giving birth. But her threshold
Speaker 1: for pain, I gotta say, is quite a lot higher
Speaker 1: than yours. Anyone, So a toddler has a higher three
Speaker 1: pain threshold, like you know, moms, like we're on emotional pain.
Speaker 1: We're a little bitchy babies. Like the younger, the younger
Speaker 1: the generations get the bitchier baby as we get totally
Speaker 1: we can't handle on it, I know, just honest and
Speaker 1: talking about it now because we're more accepting society. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna there's there's somewhere in the middle that is
Speaker 1: the correct answer. Yeah, I don't. It's not good to
Speaker 1: sweep problems under the I think mental health has definitely
Speaker 1: gotten better, but I think as far as like physical
Speaker 1: hard work, we can handle a little more. Yeah, mental
Speaker 1: is great because mental health has not been talked about
Speaker 1: at all basically for like a long time. Agreed, so, well,
Speaker 1: there's not there's not that mentality of just sucking up
Speaker 1: and do it. Doesn't It's not as prevalent in younger generations, right,
Speaker 1: but it is. Yeah, it is like insane. I've been
Speaker 1: at my job for two years and I'm just like,
Speaker 1: oh God, I can't believe you have to keep doing
Speaker 1: this every day and you just think of your parents
Speaker 1: like worked forty years that you do but that, But
Speaker 1: then I do think to myself, oh, sho, are we
Speaker 1: just a bunch of wine a little bitches? I think
Speaker 1: we might be just wine a little bitches because we're priority.
Speaker 1: Maybe we're prioritizing happiness too much, I I think so,
Speaker 1: and then it puts pressure on happy. Isn't then this
Speaker 1: we fuck less? Well. I mean like there's a lot
Speaker 1: of memes that are like that are like whatever you
Speaker 1: did today, that was enough, And that's based off it's
Speaker 1: based off of a quote from Buddha though, which I
Speaker 1: which I put on and I was like, Wow, Buddha
Speaker 1: was the laziest fuck um. But it's just like I
Speaker 1: I couldn't disagree more with that, And I think that's
Speaker 1: a bad sentiment to be passing around because like we're
Speaker 1: already kind of lazy. Americans are already so much lazier
Speaker 1: than other countries. And like also but also like we
Speaker 1: could I think, like there's other countries where they work
Speaker 1: like four hours a day and get like double done.
Speaker 1: But it's like we're just sitting at our desks mindlessly
Speaker 1: on Facebook when we could be there for four hours.
Speaker 1: I'm like, I used to know me, I would get
Speaker 1: all my work done before lunch, and then I'm like,
Speaker 1: what am I gonna do for the rest of the day,
Speaker 1: Like I should just be able to go home. Now.
Speaker 1: I feel that so much should be hours. It should
Speaker 1: be like this is what you have to get done today,
Speaker 1: and if you can, you can get it done slow,
Speaker 1: you can get it done fast, and then I can
Speaker 1: have the rest of my suing. So true, but I
Speaker 1: think it's it's that Buddha quote is probably only helpful
Speaker 1: if you are so hard on yourself that you beat
Speaker 1: yourself up over not working enough, and you were in reality,
Speaker 1: you are working a lot. That's that's for to trick
Speaker 1: other people, so you have an excuse so you can
Speaker 1: run ahead of them while they're reading that stupid quote. Here,
Speaker 1: take this magnat's propaganda to propaganda. That's what I say. Oh,
Speaker 1: I'm onto you, Buddha. Then he comes out with a book.
Speaker 1: Fuck you, you're fine the way you are. No, you're not.
Speaker 1: That's some nonsense of ever I saw it anyway. Boy.
Speaker 1: So anyone who's listening to this right now, you just
Speaker 1: fucking wasted an hour of your lik Know you didn't
Speaker 1: you listen to something like asking while you did it?
Speaker 1: Your fucking sadass losers, So you're great and beautiful. And
Speaker 1: she made icon act when she said sad loser, and
Speaker 1: it was, oh my god, what am I doing here?
Speaker 1: I'm just talking? Oh god, my mom taught children. Oh good,
Speaker 1: is there anything else you wanna? What else you would
Speaker 1: you want to talk about other than well, okay, you
Speaker 1: more than just Christina. No I'm not I that is it?
Speaker 1: Oh god, but no, to the point we are, I
Speaker 1: feel that like the best because from dealing with depression,
Speaker 1: even watching my mom like grieving so heavily, I do
Speaker 1: think like the best cure for anything is just doing something,
Speaker 1: even for a neating disorder, because I remember, like I
Speaker 1: went a week in through Hampshire to be like, I'm
Speaker 1: just going to focus on eating. I was like, no,
Speaker 1: that's not what you need eating. That seems like Karin's honeymoon.
Speaker 1: That seems like a nightmare even for me. I'm gonna
Speaker 1: focus on eating the whole week. Yeah. It was terrible
Speaker 1: because it was like, Okay, the thing that you think
Speaker 1: most about, that's now the only thing you can do
Speaker 1: and you yeah, like a real nightmare. Yeah. I think
Speaker 1: what like started healing me most was just like waitressing
Speaker 1: every day, like like it wasn't a hard job. That
Speaker 1: seems a little ironic, Yeah, serving sir, think of that,
Speaker 1: you'll get fat, And it was, oh my god, that's
Speaker 1: really fun. God in retrospect was also what a juiceryjic
Speaker 1: and soho yet Butcher's daughter, do you guys know that place?
Speaker 1: That's a great place, great place. But I do think
Speaker 1: just like doing something over and over and having purpose
Speaker 1: and it can get you out of your head. And
Speaker 1: that's a trick, though, isn't it Getting out of your
Speaker 1: head and stop stop obsessing over the food thing. But
Speaker 1: it's like, the more you say that to yourself and
Speaker 1: the more you do things to stop obsessing over the
Speaker 1: food thing, the more you're gonna obsess about the fucking
Speaker 1: food totally. To do something over and over like you had,
Speaker 1: like you had down syndrome, you's got to do the
Speaker 1: same thing over and over. And this is what I
Speaker 1: can take a hole in the sun of the Yes,
Speaker 1: I just dig and dig and dig every day and
Speaker 1: I wear my little hat. It helps. I'm serious. Oh god, yeah, no,
Speaker 1: it's true. Well, oh god, that's well. Is there anything
Speaker 1: you want else you want to let's talk about sex? Yeah? Yeah,
Speaker 1: what about set? Anything we have time for? Like another
Speaker 1: quip or another anti just is there anything else that
Speaker 1: you want people to know about you? For that? You're
Speaker 1: a fun gal? Sad My dad's dad, I don't invite
Speaker 1: media restaurant opening, I will party. Oh god, is there
Speaker 1: any way to redeem myself? Boy? But you are fun
Speaker 1: and charming? Thank you? So yeah, you're really fun. I
Speaker 1: mean you do a great job with dealing with really
Speaker 1: sad ship on stage, um to the point where like
Speaker 1: when you start the premise, everyone's like, oh yeah, everyone's laughing,
Speaker 1: which is I mean, that's a real testament to your skill. Thanks.
Speaker 1: I I yeah, I really enjoy it. I don't know,
Speaker 1: it's I think when no, I think when my dad
Speaker 1: was dying, it was so dark. Every day was so
Speaker 1: miserable and painful that comedy just popped. So my brother
Speaker 1: was home with me and we laughed harder that year
Speaker 1: than I've ever ever laughed. Yeah, just because like that's awesome.
Speaker 1: You like, I physically needed it in a way that
Speaker 1: I never had before. It really was like an orgasm.
Speaker 1: It was just like you like, they're just like all
Speaker 1: day uptight, and then it was like the laughter, just
Speaker 1: the release of laughing at something dark is the best
Speaker 1: feeling in the world. That's why we like inviting comedians
Speaker 1: to come on and talk about like quote darker subjects,
Speaker 1: because I know it's awesome. No, but it's like we
Speaker 1: can it's so helpful to hear somebody or just to
Speaker 1: whatever the thing is, just to laugh at something that's like, yeah,
Speaker 1: this can be really sad and dark and bleak, but
Speaker 1: like you know, there is also there's also humorous parts
Speaker 1: to it. Yeah, yeah, and so yes, since then I
Speaker 1: I like it. It's but I do think it's important. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's hard when when if a punch line is not good,
Speaker 1: If I have a punchline, it's not good that it's
Speaker 1: not fair because I've just brought the audience down for
Speaker 1: for nothing, which I I do. You guys are audience
Speaker 1: people listening. They are these shows in New York where
Speaker 1: you just like go to a restaurant and no one
Speaker 1: knows there's a show, and it's like, why is someone
Speaker 1: trying to interrupt my dinner? And I remember doing one
Speaker 1: one bush an ambush I did one way uptown. It
Speaker 1: was my never tells, you know, and they never gonna
Speaker 1: be a show. Everyone's gonna come to see the show. No,
Speaker 1: they want to eat, they want to eat, They're on
Speaker 1: a lovely date. And then I would just be like,
Speaker 1: so my dad's in a coma. I didn't have bunchlines yet.
Speaker 1: It was just like, okay, what else? What else? So yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean, okay, it's a dangerous territory. Yeah, I'm glad.
Speaker 1: I'm I think I'm further away from it now. Oh
Speaker 1: you got to see the Big Sex, did you say?
Speaker 1: Because I was like, you got to see that? If
Speaker 1: that means yeah, you also have to see that. It
Speaker 1: was great. Okay, I love the family stuff in that movie. Yeah.
Speaker 1: I was gonna say that's really that's really wouldn't hit
Speaker 1: home for you, I would assume, Yeah, yeah, alright, cool
Speaker 1: she Yeah, we don't want to give anything away. Pen
Speaker 1: a refrigerator magnet, an inspirational fridge magnet. What would it say?
Speaker 1: Keep just open it up once food is related. I
Speaker 1: didn't even think of like the refrigerator as being the vessel,
Speaker 1: the keeper of the food. Jesus Christ. Something opened me?
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, open me yeah, yeah, and don't come Yeah.
Speaker 1: I always open it and close it. Like, what's in
Speaker 1: your refrigerator? Oh my my roommate has a lot of food.
Speaker 1: You pretend that that's your so it looks storm wall.
Speaker 1: Look at all the food we have, says her name
Speaker 1: on it. Yeah, she doesn't have to do, she doesn't doesn't.
Speaker 1: And also her name is Alyssa. Yeah yeah, yeah, trippy
Speaker 1: l O L. That's funny. What do I have in there?
Speaker 1: I always have like commas carrot, it's an avocado. Okay,
Speaker 1: that's what I mean. I eat, I eat. I'm definitely sustenance.
Speaker 1: It has sustenance. Crime and pop chips. Pop chips are
Speaker 1: my half of my body. Okay, well I mean that
Speaker 1: less sustenance, less sustenance, more fun, more fun, Okay, but
Speaker 1: they're yeah there. I think one thing I read that
Speaker 1: I liked, maybe that this would be on my magnetive
Speaker 1: something like every day when you wake up, like put
Speaker 1: in your mind that it's going to be the best
Speaker 1: day or whatever, like like like making king. I mean,
Speaker 1: I'm not against I'm not against this. It's always the approach.
Speaker 1: It's the tell of the fridge magnet that it's the yeah,
Speaker 1: or like I had, uh someone who drove me to
Speaker 1: school in high school, like one of my friend's dad's
Speaker 1: he would like leave the card to back. Okay, guys,
Speaker 1: today's the last. What's today's day? Who knows today's the
Speaker 1: last or something? Today's the last. July seventeenth, seventeen you'll
Speaker 1: ever have, so make it a good one. Whoa epic words?
Speaker 1: Where can we find you online at alyssa limp A
Speaker 1: l y s s A l a MP on Instagram
Speaker 1: and Twitter and then lista in Paris dot com for
Speaker 1: videos and shows and all that. And you want to
Speaker 1: promote any gigs coming up or anything you want to say,
Speaker 1: I'm I'm doing my solo show a lot of jokes
Speaker 1: about my dead dad. Um what it's called. Yeah, it's
Speaker 1: called jokes about my dead dad. Get on board. It's
Speaker 1: called No Bad Days. That's kind of my dad's big things.
Speaker 1: So yeah, I'm doing that at the Providence Providence Fringe
Speaker 1: Festival and cinder Block Festival here when Yeah, that's awesome.
Speaker 1: Yeah see that. Uh yeah, let's be friends. I can't
Speaker 1: wait until everyone just emails you. Uh weird stuff about eating.
Speaker 1: Yeah great, I'm really looking forward to it. Bring it on.
Speaker 1: I'd love to hear it. Um and May and I
Speaker 1: also have a podcast called out all this Stuff that
Speaker 1: Cred has been on but we're redoing it. It's no
Speaker 1: called Crazy in Bed, and it's about being crazy and
Speaker 1: spending a lot of time in bed. I love double meaning,
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