Speaker 1: Hey, Fucker's what up? It's Christina Hutchinson and Karin Fisher.
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Speaker 1: Guys We Fucked with comedian Jessica Kerson, and if you
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Speaker 1: minds of Michael Rappaport, Trevor Nolah, Roxanne Gay for as
Speaker 1: little as two months. I am so careful of everything.
Speaker 1: I've started writing a bit about this because it's really true.
Speaker 1: I mean, like Isabella will fall my foreignar afterroom, like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, are you okay? Do you want to
Speaker 1: sit down for Daniel's like she's fine. Get like you're
Speaker 1: feeding into but that's my own ship. That's my own ship.
Speaker 1: And being hurt and having my father freak out, like
Speaker 1: I had to go to the hospital immediately, Like if
Speaker 1: you go right to trauma, well a relationship, I think
Speaker 1: like if you have childhood trauma, it's definitely gonna kind
Speaker 1: of come up in a romantic relationship, but I feel
Speaker 1: like it would doubly come up with kids because you
Speaker 1: get triggered left and right. It is I can't imagine,
Speaker 1: Holy sh it. And then when you see your parents
Speaker 1: around your kids, when you're in the matrix a lot,
Speaker 1: I didn't even think that. My dad used to go, yeah, hello,
Speaker 1: I'm grandpa. You're not even talking like it was all
Speaker 1: about debt paying attention to him, And I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: this makes so much sense. It makes so much sense.
Speaker 1: You ever just like randomly screamed at them in the
Speaker 1: middle of them having a sweet interaction with your kids.
Speaker 1: My parents, I goot into major, major fights with them
Speaker 1: around my kids. That's gonna be rough. Like I've been
Speaker 1: very very uh nutty around my mom recently. She was like,
Speaker 1: I know how to hope that. I'm so uh self conscious,
Speaker 1: I mean not self conscious. I'm so conscious of her.
Speaker 1: You're going off on another you know, doing something and
Speaker 1: then going oh there's a nice song on and like
Speaker 1: the way and my baby is just like in a river.
Speaker 1: But also I mean, like if she's like seventies six,
Speaker 1: like as people get older, just like their basic motor
Speaker 1: skills like up, and like I was actually watching a
Speaker 1: grandma with her grandson walking around like yesterday, and I'm
Speaker 1: just thinking. I'm like, oh, this kid's gonna walk into
Speaker 1: the middle that we're really old people just watching out
Speaker 1: for that and it's unsafe. Yeah, my mom like crashed
Speaker 1: into a deer. Yes, wait wait, she crashed into a deer. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it happened. Happened. It makes me so sad. But one
Speaker 1: of them once ran away and its leg was dangling,
Speaker 1: and I think I like used cocaine for two years
Speaker 1: because of that. Yeah, so injuring animals on the road
Speaker 1: is so much cocaine. After that deer ran away. Oh man,
Speaker 1: I feel that I'm serious with it with its foot dangle.
Speaker 1: It's d dangling, and I was like, I gotta do drugs.
Speaker 1: I can't deal with this. But I killed I was
Speaker 1: once drunk driving and killed a cat. I treated that.
Speaker 1: You probably saw that recently. I fed you know you love,
Speaker 1: that's gonna walk. We gotta walk right into the pain.
Speaker 1: That's so just head just let's see it. Like the
Speaker 1: deer walks into a car, just like straight headlights or
Speaker 1: you walked into the cat with your wheels. Listen to
Speaker 1: Atlantis Morrison. I know she didn't make it up, but
Speaker 1: the only way out is through, Like I just hear
Speaker 1: her singing that in my head, and you know what,
Speaker 1: You're right, walked right into this pain. If I could
Speaker 1: have driven into the forest, I would have killed the
Speaker 1: deer if I could have hit it again. I did
Speaker 1: not want it to run away suffering like oh and
Speaker 1: I just got sucked up. That deer is probably still
Speaker 1: alive with that dangling as foot and he's gone. You know,
Speaker 1: someone would need it to tie it off, because I'm saying, like,
Speaker 1: lots of dogs do survive with three legs, so I
Speaker 1: think it could have hopped, but probably the excessive lead
Speaker 1: to a hospital to walk into the US crazy bit hippy.
Speaker 1: See all the animals, like the fox comes out there,
Speaker 1: they're literally I had a book in childhood that was
Speaker 1: kind of about this. I think there was like a
Speaker 1: head chok that was carrying I have to find this
Speaker 1: book for you now, because that's cute. I would read
Speaker 1: that to Isabel. I was like, every kid does experience
Speaker 1: being in my mom and animal. I'll never forget when
Speaker 1: my mom hit a rabbit and I saw the rabbit
Speaker 1: do a barrel roll down the road and I just
Speaker 1: had to I screamed, I screamed, and I just had
Speaker 1: to block it out. I just snorted. I was like,
Speaker 1: I can't deal with this. Yeah. Yeah, the older you get,
Speaker 1: you go, oh, I can hide these feelings with substances.
Speaker 1: It's like a button. I don't even have to try. Ell. Yeah,
Speaker 1: que at her addiction. Cheers, Oh my god, cheers. Yeah. Well,
Speaker 1: I'm reading this book on a d h D. That's
Speaker 1: like blowing my mind and not making me feel guilty
Speaker 1: about it because it actually makes so much sense, because
Speaker 1: society is very a d h D in general. But
Speaker 1: it's just god, yeah, yeah, just like if you get
Speaker 1: overwhelmed with something that's frustrated, like a frustrating task and
Speaker 1: you just have low tolerance for frustration. It says so
Speaker 1: many things that I'm like, wait, you're describing all my failures. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's not failures, it's just who we are. But yeah,
Speaker 1: there's what do they say? There's certain foods that you
Speaker 1: shouldn't eat or things you shouldn't drink. I don't know.
Speaker 1: I haven't read the whole book. I'm like three quarters
Speaker 1: of the way through the thin well and then you well,
Speaker 1: now I had to do audio book because I'll read
Speaker 1: it and I'll go what did I just read? I
Speaker 1: don't remember I'm like you. And then she he talks
Speaker 1: about if you're in conversations and you pretend that you
Speaker 1: hear what the person is saying and you're looking them
Speaker 1: in the eye, but you black out me too. I
Speaker 1: did that. I had when I had a party here
Speaker 1: the other night, a small intimate gathering, um that I
Speaker 1: was talking to one of the girls, this one girl,
Speaker 1: and she was telling of things I'm like, and then
Speaker 1: she got, you know what I mean? And I said yes,
Speaker 1: and I don't know what she just said, and I've
Speaker 1: been looking at her. I thought that was a survival skill.
Speaker 1: That a mechanism. You say, you're being held hostage by
Speaker 1: a dumb story. Yeah, because I I lose in the
Speaker 1: second after the first sentence, it better be really interesting.
Speaker 1: When we do the podcasts I don't like, sometimes I'll
Speaker 1: black out. Sometimes I do too. But when I do
Speaker 1: mine and I'm listening, and I'm like, this is the
Speaker 1: most boring thing I've ever heard in my entire life,
Speaker 1: and there's no reason that I'm having this person of
Speaker 1: Fear of boredom is a thing, fear of boredom. He
Speaker 1: talks about fear of boredom. I thought that was an
Speaker 1: interesting way to put it. I hate a lot of
Speaker 1: people are boring. Can we just be honest? I hate them.
Speaker 1: I hate boring people, I really do. Because it got
Speaker 1: a waste of oxygen, What a waste of time, what
Speaker 1: a waste of space? You need them to do like
Speaker 1: organizing ship though, like you, if everyone was interesting, then
Speaker 1: the world would be completely I don't want to talk
Speaker 1: to you. We don't have to hang out well, I mean,
Speaker 1: like comics are interesting and like small day to day interactions.
Speaker 1: You could you want to you don't. You don't want
Speaker 1: your like cashier Dwayne Read to be like wild, you know,
Speaker 1: like you don't you just need to get like you
Speaker 1: don't need you don't need a whole thing. So and
Speaker 1: you know. Also that's where I've been practicing my comedy
Speaker 1: bits during the quarantine. I live right by Dwyane Read.
Speaker 1: I do a couple of bits for the yeah because
Speaker 1: they yeah, they look and then and then they're very appreciative.
Speaker 1: What's the bul I don't know. I do a lot
Speaker 1: of like sarcastic bits or like maybe like an intense
Speaker 1: like hitting on someone a lot less good than you.
Speaker 1: I find that fun. I don't know why. And then
Speaker 1: when they reject you. It's doubly hurtful. So yeah, that's fun.
Speaker 1: You know, I'm just thinking because I do characters a lot.
Speaker 1: We've talked about that. Can you imagine if I go
Speaker 1: into a drene room like I know how you'll yeah,
Speaker 1: and they'd be like, I'm yeah. You would get videotaped
Speaker 1: and uploaded right away. Karen on the loose. I've been
Speaker 1: watching these Karen accounts. I can't watch him anymore. Some
Speaker 1: of these white ladies are they are talk about child
Speaker 1: to trauma. I don't know what, but holy ship, I
Speaker 1: watched it yesterday and this needs to be in a home.
Speaker 1: This is not I don't like women who got married
Speaker 1: to husbands who they well, it's like that. I think
Speaker 1: they're women who just like follow everything their husband says
Speaker 1: and don't actually in their hearts like think things that
Speaker 1: like you know, Donald Trump are doing it as great,
Speaker 1: but like they just have no sense of self because
Speaker 1: they got married. So it makes me crazy. That's very true.
Speaker 1: You cannot go crazy if you if you live your
Speaker 1: life that way, Yeah, because you're living the life of
Speaker 1: society wants you. You think society wants you to live.
Speaker 1: And then also I think there is especially with h
Speaker 1: straight white women, because well white women just like aesthetically
Speaker 1: age worse like there and never everyone like everyone likes
Speaker 1: to tell us this, and so there there is because
Speaker 1: of how we treat older women in society. I think
Speaker 1: you they're like responding to that in a way to
Speaker 1: so it's like, well, we're treating you know, these people
Speaker 1: like they're nothing, so then they're going to act out
Speaker 1: just to get attention in any way. And so I
Speaker 1: think that's why I don't get so mad, because I'm like,
Speaker 1: we really do think of like women over like I
Speaker 1: don't know, definitely over fifty is like very disposable and
Speaker 1: it's very true. But also and especially it's it's magnified
Speaker 1: in this business, and I think people, people, including women
Speaker 1: in that age bracket, are condescending towards women in that
Speaker 1: age bracket. It's like a condescending, weird thing of like
Speaker 1: you're you're you're touched or like you need to help,
Speaker 1: like it's just I don't know, just talking down. A
Speaker 1: lot of talking down. Yeah, there is a lot of
Speaker 1: which is weird because I'm like I was just saying,
Speaker 1: I was like I was sitting home on the other
Speaker 1: day and I was like, I need to make a
Speaker 1: friend group of only women over forties so I can
Speaker 1: hang out with like them. That This was like a
Speaker 1: true thought I had. I was like, I need to
Speaker 1: learn things. I need to stop, like hanging out with
Speaker 1: people younger than me who like don't can't give me
Speaker 1: advice because I was giving, like I was giving someone
Speaker 1: in my life advice, and I was like, I need
Speaker 1: someone who get it's important. That's very important. I'm not kidding.
Speaker 1: I always tried to be around women who had what
Speaker 1: I wanted. Yeah, yeah, and they lived their life the
Speaker 1: way I wanted to an older regal woman like yes, yes,
Speaker 1: that's what I need. Tom Oh. I spent time with
Speaker 1: her Helen miream, oh my god, her boobs are soft.
Speaker 1: I saw her boot. Didn't you put her show boobe
Speaker 1: in something? And I was like, probably boobs don't get wrinkly.
Speaker 1: That's when I learned that soft. Yeah, they're just like
Speaker 1: they look like new boobs. Well then her, they might
Speaker 1: be because boobs for as someone who worked at a
Speaker 1: spa for five years, they do. Yes, when I sucked her,
Speaker 1: I didn't touch her boobs, but that's rude. Thank you
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