Speaker 1: Hello, and welcome back to the Psychology of Your Twenties,
Speaker 1: the Very unprofessional podcast, whereby I your unqualified guide talk
Speaker 1: through some of the big changes and transitions of our
Speaker 1: twenties and what they mean for our psychology. Well, okay,
Speaker 1: it's been a big week. First week of August has
Speaker 1: absolutely blown by, and we're also halfway through the year,
Speaker 1: which is insane time as moving people, I'm having a
Speaker 1: flipping marvelous time of it all. I also just wanted
Speaker 1: to quickly start off by saying a big thank you
Speaker 1: to all those who have been listening to my podcast
Speaker 1: so far. I don't know. This is a real passion
Speaker 1: project for me. I love talking about these concepts and
Speaker 1: getting to deep dive into the psychological theory behind their occurrence,
Speaker 1: especially in our twenties. So I'm really really grateful that
Speaker 1: people actually are finding it interesting and want to listen
Speaker 1: to me ramble and thanks for all the messages and
Speaker 1: the love. It just means a lot. And if you
Speaker 1: have feedback, please send it my way. I obviously want
Speaker 1: to hear it. And just a huge thanks to everyone
Speaker 1: who has already reached out. So that sappy, happy side
Speaker 1: out of the way. This week we're going to be
Speaker 1: talking about the Green Monster. So jealousy. Not only is
Speaker 1: it an amazing Olivio Rodrigo song, but it's also a
Speaker 1: really bloody interesting topic to look into as someone who
Speaker 1: I would say often gets that jealous surge at times.
Speaker 1: So hopefully I can spread some cool knowledge about what
Speaker 1: I have discovered in my time reading up on this yeah,
Speaker 1: and just kind of investigating jealousy. Also a big shout
Speaker 1: out to a friend of the show, Carolina, for suggesting
Speaker 1: this episode on the poll I ran on my Instagram
Speaker 1: a few weeks ago. I thought this just would be
Speaker 1: a great concept to break down, particularly for those in
Speaker 1: their twenties. I think jealousy is a weird emotion, and
Speaker 1: really being able to break down why it's so intense,
Speaker 1: why it leaves us feeling so ikey, is important so
Speaker 1: that you know, A, we don't feel bad when we
Speaker 1: do get jealous and B we can kind of manage
Speaker 1: it and ensure that it doesn't harm our friendships, our
Speaker 1: relationships and overall well being. Firstly, jealousy is a universal emotion.
Speaker 1: It's not just those in their twenties that have that
Speaker 1: weird pang of emotion or obsessiveness and insecurity in our
Speaker 1: relationships or towards another person. But young people are more
Speaker 1: prone to jealousy than any other age group, particularly those
Speaker 1: between the nineteen and twenty six age range. So there
Speaker 1: was this research done by the University of California and
Speaker 1: they found eighty percent of people aged thirty or under
Speaker 1: had felt an attack of the green eyed monster I
Speaker 1: guess in the past year, compared to just sixty nine
Speaker 1: percent of people over fifty. So a real big age
Speaker 1: difference there, or just a difference in frequency, I guess
Speaker 1: amongst different age groups. I think especially when we're young
Speaker 1: and in love or just feeling more vulnerable, jealousy can
Speaker 1: be a lot more common, especially in romantic relationships, but
Speaker 1: also friendships or towards people we may not even know.
Speaker 1: And jealousy it's not just about love or being protective
Speaker 1: of a relationship. We can feel jealous of basically anything
Speaker 1: you know, looks, possessions, as well as obviously our partners
Speaker 1: and friends. But what really often drives jealousy is unfortunately
Speaker 1: something a little bit deeper, So low self esteem and
Speaker 1: poor self image is typically more common in those who
Speaker 1: report feeling more jealous towards those in their lives, and
Speaker 1: in one study, overwhelmingly people actually envied others of their
Speaker 1: own gender more so men envied other men and women
Speaker 1: envied other women more consistently. Even in domains like financial
Speaker 1: and occupation or success where you can imagine that you know,
Speaker 1: a woman might envy a man for his better pay
Speaker 1: or status, that usually wasn't the case. It's normally those
Speaker 1: who are the same gender that you identify ass that
Speaker 1: normally receive a great deal more of your envy or
Speaker 1: your jealousy. But like I kind of mentioned, jealousy, it
Speaker 1: often comes from a lack of security in what we have,
Speaker 1: or a lack of certainty or trust, especially in the
Speaker 1: case of relationships, And yeah, it can be a pretty
Speaker 1: terrible feeling and create problems. But it's so important not
Speaker 1: to suppress feelings of jealousy, especially when we're young, because
Speaker 1: in this time we do have the opportunity to examine
Speaker 1: the origins of the emotion before it becomes a pattern
Speaker 1: of our behavior and a pattern of our thought. That's
Speaker 1: why I think it is so crucial to discuss it
Speaker 1: in relation to twenty something year olds. You know, in
Speaker 1: this time of our lives, we have all these new experiences,
Speaker 1: we're learning what a relationship is, what boundaries we want
Speaker 1: for ourselves. We're establishing our sense of security and trust
Speaker 1: in ourselves and also those around us. So jealousy can
Speaker 1: be a real challenge, not just because it can be
Speaker 1: pretty common, but also because none of us want to
Speaker 1: be you know, that jealous person in any situation. You know,
Speaker 1: the jealous girlfriend or the jealous boyfriend. So let's examine
Speaker 1: the psychology of jealousy. Why is this green monster such
Speaker 1: a hard one to shake off? Where does it kind
Speaker 1: of come from, where does it emerge from? And what's
Speaker 1: the purpose of jealousy? How can we acknowledge, address, and
Speaker 1: move on from jealousy before it kind of creates havoc
Speaker 1: in our personal lives or leads to us sacrificing amazing
Speaker 1: relationships intimately and otherwise. Okay, so let's clear one thing
Speaker 1: up firstly. Although I've kind of already said this, jealousy
Speaker 1: is an entirely natural emotion to feel, it's not a
Speaker 1: primary emotion. It's rather the combination of another of a
Speaker 1: number of other primary emotions which we might be a
Speaker 1: little bit better at recognizing. So let's just make up
Speaker 1: a scenario. So imagine you've been talking with this guy,
Speaker 1: this girl, person of your choosing. Maybe it's best to
Speaker 1: kind of close your eyes and picture someone someone that
Speaker 1: you've really liked at some stage, or maybe you currently
Speaker 1: like them, someone that you've been talking to. Maybe you
Speaker 1: just really vibe with them, you have good chemistry, love
Speaker 1: spending time with them, and maybe you're hoping it will
Speaker 1: go further, maybe you'll end up dating or something like that,
Speaker 1: but basically you really like them, and imagine that feeling
Speaker 1: of just being consumed by someone thinking about them constantly.
Speaker 1: Then you see them with someone else, probably most likely
Speaker 1: in Brandon or fucking Dixon. Woolli's definitely Cambrid coincidence. This
Speaker 1: obviously has happened to me before. But you see them
Speaker 1: as someone else, and you just can imagine that feeling
Speaker 1: for a second, that heart swelling mixture of anger, of
Speaker 1: anxiety and sadness. It's pretty terrible, And yeah, we kind
Speaker 1: of need to realize, like, what is the emotional core
Speaker 1: of jealousy. We can recognize that feeling. I know we've
Speaker 1: probably all felt jealous of something in our lives before,
Speaker 1: but jealousy is not one emotion. You know, you're not
Speaker 1: just jealous, it's a combination of two primary emotions that
Speaker 1: kind of create our overall emotional state. So firstly, there
Speaker 1: is anxiety or fear, mostly around losing something, something being
Speaker 1: taken from you, or not being able to attain something
Speaker 1: that you would like. And this fear or anxiety is
Speaker 1: what creates that initial almost nervous gut feeling, increased heart rate,
Speaker 1: and just general discomfort. And then the anger tends to
Speaker 1: come next, almost as a defense towards your fear. So
Speaker 1: the anger is often the main what is that main
Speaker 1: feeling that we have when feeling jealous, And you may
Speaker 1: also feel a lot of doubt and dread. And I
Speaker 1: also read another study which was a bit more anew
Speaker 1: It was a newer study, and they suggested that jealousy
Speaker 1: might also be made up of grief, So not just
Speaker 1: fear and anger, but grief or just this like momentary
Speaker 1: pain at the thought of losing a loved object or person.
Speaker 1: And because these emotions are so strong, they can and
Speaker 1: often carry with us. It's not just a momentary emotional state.
Speaker 1: Things like grief, as we know, they don't leave once
Speaker 1: you've felt it for a couple of minutes. So That's
Speaker 1: why jealousy can kind of travel with us through a relationship,
Speaker 1: even after you know an issue has been talked about
Speaker 1: or rectified. But I think the other thing to make
Speaker 1: very clear is jealousy is never intentional. It's simply the
Speaker 1: emotion or the combination of emotions that we feel when
Speaker 1: we suspect losing something we cherish, and it can be
Speaker 1: triggered by heaps of factors. But we can see why
Speaker 1: it's common in relationships settings, especially when we're young, and
Speaker 1: those losses can be so raw and new, So this
Speaker 1: threat will often come from a third party, and it
Speaker 1: can make someone feel as if they're being replaced. So
Speaker 1: our brains do commonly link jealousy to romantic relationships. For example,
Speaker 1: a boyfriend who starts an argument when his girlfriend gets
Speaker 1: a text from another man, or maybe we run into
Speaker 1: an x and you know they've got someone new with them.
Speaker 1: These are common triggers for a jealous person, but we
Speaker 1: can feel threatened in relationships that aren't romantic as well.
Speaker 1: You know, friendships co workers. Family members is also a
Speaker 1: big one, especially siblings that are close in age. I
Speaker 1: found it was a really interesting study that showed family
Speaker 1: larger families or families with lots of siblings or kids
Speaker 1: close in age, we're more likely to report greater instances
Speaker 1: of jealousy within the family dynamic. But this all kind
Speaker 1: of happens when we're young, and as we get older,
Speaker 1: we do understand jealousy a bit better, especially because we've
Speaker 1: been able to navigate it in the past or having
Speaker 1: had experiences that have taught us what to expect. But
Speaker 1: if you're always, if you always handle jealousy by first
Speaker 1: letting the anger take over and seeking to avoid the pain,
Speaker 1: by ignoring those feelings or acting in something or from
Speaker 1: someplace other than your wise mind, then you will create
Speaker 1: a behavioral pattern in reaction to these feelings. So when
Speaker 1: you feel threatened, this acts as a trigger. So behavioral
Speaker 1: models in psychology explain this really, really well. So behaviorism
Speaker 1: is the kind of area that probably best relates to this.
Speaker 1: So at first, threatening situations that create jealousy act as
Speaker 1: the unconditioned stimulus. So essentially, we naturally feel angry and anxious,
Speaker 1: perhaps experienced grief if you know, our partner was talking
Speaker 1: to other people, or someone we know got a job
Speaker 1: we really wanted. However, say that your reaction to that
Speaker 1: jealousy is to cut these people off, is to suppress
Speaker 1: the emotion not address it. After this reaction is repeatingly
Speaker 1: paired with the jealous feelings over time, Soon we'll just
Speaker 1: behave this way unconsciously, unconsciously without even realizing it. So
Speaker 1: you start to even avoid situations where you believe you
Speaker 1: might be made to feel jealous, so avoiding relationships or
Speaker 1: leaving the moment that you feel like you're not valued
Speaker 1: or there's someone to be envious of. So it can
Speaker 1: become pretty easy to be what we know as a
Speaker 1: jealous person. But are some people They are more prone
Speaker 1: to jealousy than others. So psychological factors that lead to
Speaker 1: a jealous personality type may include low self esteem, which
Speaker 1: we talked about, So a sense of inadequacy is often
Speaker 1: a cause of jealousy that isn't relationship dependent. People who
Speaker 1: feel inadequate don't present their sense of personal impotence in
Speaker 1: relationships alone, and this suggests that it has a lot
Speaker 1: more to do with a person's reflection of themselves more
Speaker 1: than just sexual or intimate possessiveness. Some other factors which
Speaker 1: have been consistently linked to a jealous personality type is anxiety, moodiness, depression,
Speaker 1: if you've got possessiveness and securities, a fear of abandonment,
Speaker 1: which I really want to talk about in an upcoming
Speaker 1: episode because I think it would be really interesting if
Speaker 1: you have a tendency towards codependency as well, and kind
Speaker 1: of alongside that fear of abandonment, if you have an
Speaker 1: anxious attachment style. So when someone's personality is perhaps dominated
Speaker 1: by any or all of these factors, jealousy it's not
Speaker 1: likely going to be a foreign emotion for them, and
Speaker 1: this can make it hard to have long lasting and
Speaker 1: meaningful relationships then, both romantic and in the friends sense,
Speaker 1: when we are in our twenties, especially if you have
Speaker 1: acquired that learned response to situations that stir up jealous feelings. Okay,
Speaker 1: so far we've really demonstrate how jealousy is very much
Speaker 1: a relational combination of emotions, So it emerges primarily in
Speaker 1: response to our social relationships with others, particularly close relationships
Speaker 1: such as friendships or romantic connections. And I've really tried
Speaker 1: to stress my perspective at least that jealousy is a
Speaker 1: natural emotional state in its pure form at least, but
Speaker 1: it then can slowly become cultivated and more prominent due
Speaker 1: to reinforcing behaviors. So if my interpretation is correct, not
Speaker 1: saying that it is, but this is just what I've
Speaker 1: kind of gathered. Envy and jealousy. They are intrinsic and
Speaker 1: can be very powerful emotions. Yeah, but not those that
Speaker 1: we need to flee from or feel embarrassed by, as
Speaker 1: long as we communicate with others and react to those
Speaker 1: twinges from a wise mind. Douse, my therapist would say,
Speaker 1: shout out to Josie, but not an emotional mind. So
Speaker 1: a wise mind is the best way to go about
Speaker 1: dealing with with feelings of jealousy. But let's offer another perspective.
Speaker 1: We're not one sided on this show. We all know
Speaker 1: that in our twenties, relationships they don't all tend to
Speaker 1: look the same way. There's a lot more freedom to
Speaker 1: be experimental or do things differently, whether that's by keeping
Speaker 1: a relationship open, being polly friends with benefits. It's no
Speaker 1: longer the standard man and women girlfriend and boyfriend situation
Speaker 1: for many many reasons, and I think especially during this time.
Speaker 1: You know, why don't you keep a relationship open if
Speaker 1: it's something that you both feel comfortable with. You know,
Speaker 1: we're young, there are a lot of people out there
Speaker 1: to love, and we have our whole lives to be
Speaker 1: coupled with one person, if that's inevitably what you decide
Speaker 1: to do. So the reason I'm introducing polly and open
Speaker 1: relationships is because it kind of provides a counter argument
Speaker 1: to this idea that jealousy is intrinsic. So polly and
Speaker 1: open relationships, they're not a new thing. You know, non
Speaker 1: monogamy dates all the way back to BCA times. There's
Speaker 1: evidence that's existed in Rome, China, Mongolia. It's also permitted
Speaker 1: a number of religions, obviously Islam, where it's acceptable to
Speaker 1: have up to four wabs, but obviously also in the
Speaker 1: Mormon faith as well. But it hasn't been you know,
Speaker 1: all around, very accepted or welcomed in the previous century,
Speaker 1: just in everyday life. And you know, until now, you know,
Speaker 1: it wasn't really something that people looked into, whereas these days,
Speaker 1: you know, you probably could find people who have this
Speaker 1: type of relationship and it really works for them. Also,
Speaker 1: i think it's probably important to recognize that historical and
Speaker 1: modern polyamory they're very different things. You know, his historical
Speaker 1: non monogamy, it was primarily for the purpose of procreation
Speaker 1: or reproduction, whereas now it can be for more reasons
Speaker 1: than just that. Okay, that was a bit of a
Speaker 1: historical to tangent or digression, the purpose of which was
Speaker 1: to introduce the idea that perhaps jealousy is not natural
Speaker 1: in romantic relationships. As I've previously suggested, so, polyamorous couples
Speaker 1: are often able to know that their partner was with
Speaker 1: other people and not experienced jealousy, and people in poly
Speaker 1: relationships tend to hold the idea that jealousy is actually
Speaker 1: culturally instilled to us, especially at a young age and
Speaker 1: in Western societies, where being envious of people can make
Speaker 1: us more competitive, which helps motivate success and accumulation, which
Speaker 1: are things of a lot of value in many Western cultures.
Speaker 1: Much like a lot of the psychological theory suggests, people
Speaker 1: in healthy polyamorous relationships may view jealousy more as an
Speaker 1: indication of a deeper sense of insecurity that has been
Speaker 1: created by this deeper social narrative, rather than being due
Speaker 1: to some innate sense of sexual possessiveness or jealousy that
Speaker 1: you know, an evolutionary perspective might say is the case,
Speaker 1: and this has some pretty surprising evidence that suggests jealousy
Speaker 1: may be cultural and socially specific. So one study hypothesized
Speaker 1: that aggression in jealousy situations it's correlated with the cultural
Speaker 1: importance attached to being married, are the limitations placed on
Speaker 1: non marital and extra marital sexual gratification. It's also linked
Speaker 1: to the emphasis of private property within a society and
Speaker 1: the requirement of personal descendants. So in societies where these
Speaker 1: social ideas are not dominant, feelings of jealousy are suspected
Speaker 1: to be to be less. And furthermore, in male dominated societies,
Speaker 1: jealousy was likely to be more common amongst all genders
Speaker 1: as well. This was another thing that they suggested, and
Speaker 1: the findings did show that in cultures that were less
Speaker 1: forcased on these certain characteristics of the social fabric, such
Speaker 1: as being married and having offspring, jealousy was less. Particularly
Speaker 1: of the four cultures that researchers examine, time men and
Speaker 1: women were less likely to express jealousy, as were pre
Speaker 1: industrial communities or those where obviously polyamory is the cultural norm.
Speaker 1: I think it is important to say though, although these
Speaker 1: groups did experience less jealousy, it was not at a
Speaker 1: level of being completely nonexistent. So jealousy, although it's culturally
Speaker 1: influenced in the frequency and intensity of expression, it does
Speaker 1: still seem to be universal in nature. Okay, So, if
Speaker 1: you're in your twenties and you're feeling that jealousy spike
Speaker 1: when you see your friends hanging out, or you know
Speaker 1: your partner's messaging someone else, or a coworkers getting more
Speaker 1: intention from your boss, do not fret for two reasons. Firstly,
Speaker 1: feelings of jealousy are unnatural, they're attached to some of
Speaker 1: our most fundamental emotions. And secondly, it's equally not your
Speaker 1: fault due to elements of our culture and that emphasis
Speaker 1: on possession as well as or possession is also as
Speaker 1: an attribute of success and dominance. So this fuels the
Speaker 1: need to have feelings of jealousy in order to motivate
Speaker 1: us to hold on to things that we see of
Speaker 1: as having value. Obviously, this does not give anyone listening
Speaker 1: the permission or the excuse to move into the territory
Speaker 1: of being pathologically jealous. So pathological jealousy it's when these
Speaker 1: feelings become clinical. It's also sometimes known as delusion or disorder.
Speaker 1: Look into it. It's it's kind of like a form
Speaker 1: of Schizzo effective disorder, and it occurs when people have
Speaker 1: these intrusive and repetitive but crucially, they're unfounded. They have
Speaker 1: these repetitive ideas that their romantic partner is cheating on them,
Speaker 1: essentially leading to increasingly possessive behavior. So, but there's no
Speaker 1: evidence of that, it's a delusion hence delusion or disorder.
Speaker 1: But it's really hard to treat. You know, these people
Speaker 1: have an unnatural pattern of thinking that has breached the
Speaker 1: territory of needing treatment and they very rarely have control
Speaker 1: over these jealous delusions. So it's it's it's a psychiatric
Speaker 1: disorder essentially, and although there is evidence that people can
Speaker 1: take antipsychotics, often the only way to overcome this disorder
Speaker 1: is to become comfortable with the idea that you know, yes,
Speaker 1: your partner might be cheating on you, even if there
Speaker 1: is no evidence. So you kind of have to live
Speaker 1: in the idea that this could be true, but you're
Speaker 1: okay with it. And a therapist would want their patient
Speaker 1: to accept this as a possibility, but also to be
Speaker 1: able to move forward. So basically the outcome for this
Speaker 1: disorder is that jealousy is never fully eliminated and it
Speaker 1: never really goes away. You still have a distrust of
Speaker 1: the person that you're with. You just learn to manage
Speaker 1: it better. So that is a pretty bleak outlook. But
Speaker 1: then again, we are talking about a disordered version of jealousy.
Speaker 1: So for the average Joe in their twenties or whatever
Speaker 1: age you might be, jealousy can be reduced and no,
Speaker 1: you do not need antipsychotics to do it, fortunately enough. So,
Speaker 1: seeing as jealousy can be brought on by so many
Speaker 1: varying factors, there's no really standard cure for the emotion,
Speaker 1: and in my opinion, I think if you can manage
Speaker 1: it in a healthy manner, it's not actually something to
Speaker 1: be avoided. Otherwise you do end up losing control of
Speaker 1: the emotion and that's when it becomes a problem. You know,
Speaker 1: you cannot go through life, especially in such a social
Speaker 1: and relational world, without experiencing jealousy, so you may as
Speaker 1: well become a custom to dealing with it when you're
Speaker 1: in your twenties and have less to lose and heaps
Speaker 1: to learn. So I think just noting that the emotion
Speaker 1: exists and is clouding your brain is the most important part.
Speaker 1: So basic acknowledgement therapy. You know, you can self administer,
Speaker 1: you don't have to go to headspace or anything. And jealousy,
Speaker 1: it's it's really normal, and it can be pretty tricky
Speaker 1: to thing to navigate when we're in our twenties. For example,
Speaker 1: you know, I found out my ex has a new girlfriend,
Speaker 1: and obviously there's some pretty intense jealousy followed with that.
Speaker 1: But understanding why I felt triggered and uncovering the emotions
Speaker 1: leading up to it, the insecurity that was creating this feeling,
Speaker 1: was really really useful. So when did I start feeling
Speaker 1: this way? Why do I feel threatened? Is it because
Speaker 1: I'm missing something? And what part of my personality are
Speaker 1: involved in these feelings of jealousy? Because I don't love
Speaker 1: this person anymore. I haven't been with them for a
Speaker 1: very long time. Why is it only now that that
Speaker 1: possessed is kind of clicking in? And I have this
Speaker 1: really good phrase that I use all the time. My
Speaker 1: friends know this, but I just think it's a really
Speaker 1: great way to explain this. And this is the phrase.
Speaker 1: If it still triggers you, if it still makes you jealous,
Speaker 1: then you still have some healing to do. Because jealousy,
Speaker 1: you know it's coming from an internal place or a
Speaker 1: sense of inadequacy, So addressing that root issue first will
Speaker 1: do wonders to lessen envy towards anyone really, So yeah,
Speaker 1: if it still triggers you, if it still makes you jealous,
Speaker 1: then you still have some healing to do. And there
Speaker 1: is no magical cute or jealousy can be analyzed and
Speaker 1: likely avoided in the future. Yes, but it's never going
Speaker 1: to be completely eliminated. And if you would like to
Speaker 1: reach that point, I think it would just include heaps
Speaker 1: of mindful nerves, heaps of therapy. You'd have to have
Speaker 1: a lot of honest and intimate conversations, which you're very
Speaker 1: much well come to do. But it does seem like
Speaker 1: a bit a bit of a challenge. You may as
Speaker 1: well just accept it, have those conversations and move on.
Speaker 1: And I know I have stressed as heaps and it
Speaker 1: can get a little bit preachy. But whether jealousy is
Speaker 1: culturally mediated or intrinsic, whichever theory you choose to believe,
Speaker 1: it's not something that can be ignored. You know, if
Speaker 1: you approach the entirety of your younger years simply looking
Speaker 1: to avoid pain or feelings of insecurity, what are you
Speaker 1: really getting out of your life? You know, of the
Speaker 1: avoidance of pain, there's a tradeoff for that, and the
Speaker 1: avoidance of jealousy. There's also a tradeoff for that as well.
Speaker 1: So embrace a healthy amount of jealousy. Let it remind
Speaker 1: you of what you need to work on personally and internally.
Speaker 1: Don't just project it onto the actions of other people.
Speaker 1: But what is your ego trying to communicate to you?
Speaker 1: And move from there? Just be open, be honest, acknowledged
Speaker 1: the feelings without kind of letting it fuck things up
Speaker 1: too much. So, yeah, why is note to finish on?
Speaker 1: I think I always provide like this very considered life
Speaker 1: advice at the end, whereas I'm over here being like,
Speaker 1: I get jealous all the time. I'm not afraid to
Speaker 1: hide it. But yeah, there's there's my two cents on
Speaker 1: the topic. And I really hope you enjoyed this episode.
Speaker 1: It was really really interesting to look into, I think
Speaker 1: because I've had these feelings of jealousy recently and it
Speaker 1: kind of got me down. I was like I'm not
Speaker 1: really a naturally jealous person like I was saying. It
Speaker 1: was in relation to someone that I don't really care
Speaker 1: about anymore, you know, I don't really need them in
Speaker 1: my life. Really moved on, but it was like a
Speaker 1: reminder of losing something that once I really valued. So yeah,
Speaker 1: I did a lot of kind of self acknowledgement therapy
Speaker 1: around it, and happy to report I am feeling okay now,
Speaker 1: but yeah, sorry, a little bit of a tangent. Thanks
Speaker 1: for listening, by the way, if you're still here getting
Speaker 1: all the juicy goss on my life. Also, if you
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Speaker 1: hope you have an amazing second week of August. You know,
Speaker 1: it's fifteen degrees today, the sun is coming. I'm very
Speaker 1: excited for some some summer love and some you know,
Speaker 1: summer outdoors time and drinks. So anyhow, have an amazing week,
Speaker 1: and then thank you so much for listening.