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For week 7 it is a bit difficult for me to find the right words. There was an essential shift. A change that affected my body as well as my mind, my thoughts and finally my emotions. In short, somehow all of me. Basically, it continued as well as the week before. This one, however, kind of kicked it up a notch. I think that sums it up pretty well. My observation mode towards myself, my mindfulness towards myself, has grown into a familiar steady state...
Short and sweet, week 6 was great! It was just awesome. In the practice of KungFu and Qi Gong I made tangible progress, even the running was ok, so without the very big inner discussions and as far as breathing is concerned, I would even like to talk about a quantum leap of further development. And the greatest thing is, that my head is somehow getting quieter. My thoughts are getting calmer and calmer...
In week 5, the light came back and with it a great deal more lightness. I was actually able to rid myself of the darkness, the dull and grueling thoughts, the physical heaviness, and the general gloom of the past week. YEAH! This quite wonderful relief brought me not only a better mood of mind, but also a sense of freedom that I had not consciously experienced before...
Today is May 31, 2023, which means today marks the end of the first month of my Self-Mastery program, my Self-Mastery journey. Today I would like to take the opportunity to look back on the past weeks, on the first month, from a different perspective than I have usually done in my weekly reports. I would like to go into more detail today about what has happened in my body, and in my mind...
Week 4 was just exhausting - physically, mentally, emotionally and in general. It was a week where my emotional spiral was clearly downward and also a week of extreme physical heaviness. Her days were riddled with dark thoughts of doubt and very rarely feelings of security and confidence flashed very briefly. The week demanded quite a lot from me and leaves me exhausted and also questioning.
I think by week 3 I'm quite a bit more into the Self-Mastery program. It certainly feels that way. Once again, I have increased my morning routine - while my evening routine has shrunk again a bit, because Qi Gong in the evening was not a very good idea. Special highlights for me this week were on the one hand the release of the first KungFu practice video, which I was very excited about, and on the other hand the making of a really brave decision for me...
Week 2 continues under the motto "I'm arriving at the Self Mastery Program". Which means I'm still tinkering with my morning and evening routines and trying things out. For example, I've incorporated Qi Gong into my daily practice, even though it's not yet on the curriculum for this month. Mentally, this week, I've been preoccupied with the Buddha's 4 noble truths and how I experience and deal with them.
In a nutshell, week 1 describes itself something like this: A completely different start than expected - stand up for myself - morning routine - evening routine - abstinence from alcohol - super big challenge mirror upside down online training - breathing properly is an even bigger challenge - and the honest assessment of my agility and body control is not exactly encouraging. But in the end, there's a plan and a mindset that it's a journey and I'll take it one step at a time.
It is the last week before my life will turn more than 180 degrees with a high probability. Maybe it will go more in the direction of 360, but that remains to be seen. In any case, these are the last days before I will start the Online Self-Mastery Program of Shaolin Temple Europe. What this Shaolin program is, who I am and why I decided to do it and with what intention - that's what I'm talking about today.