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“Lifestyle Edit Survivors in this stage can have their lifestyle affected in some of the following ways: Their sense of personal security or safety is damaged. They feel hesitant to enter new relationships. Questioning their sexual identity or sexual orientation (more typical of men raped by other men or women raped by other women.[16][17]). Sexual relationships become disturbed.[18] Many survivors have reported that they were unable to re-establish normal sexual relations and often shied away from sexual contact for some time after the rape. Some report inhibited sexual response and flashbacks to the rape during intercourse. Conversely, some rape survivors become hyper-sexual or promiscuous following sexual attacks, sometimes as a way to reassert a measure of control over their sexual relations. Some rape survivors may see the world as a more threatening place to live in, so they will place restrictions on their lives, interrupting their normal activity. For example, they may discontinue previously active involvements in societies, groups or clubs, or a parent who was a survivor of rape may place restrictions on the freedom of their children.” “RAINN[8] identifies five main coping strategies during the outward adjustment phase: minimization (pretending 'everything is fine') dramatization (cannot stop talking about the assault) suppression (refuses to discuss the rape) explanation (analyzes what happened) flight (moves to a new home or city, alters appearance) Other coping mechanisms that may appear during the outward adjustment phase include: poor health in general.[4] continuing anxiety sense of helplessness Carelessness of themselves or others around them (they could not protect themselves against the attack so they lose self care) hypervigilance inability to maintain previously close relationships experiencing a general response of nervousness known as the "startle response" persistent fear and or depression at much higher rates than the general population[11] mood swings from relatively happy to depression or anger extreme anger and hostility (they are very hateful towards the ones that are closest to them [12]). Some survivors may even say "I HATE PEOPLE" or "I HATE THE WORLD". sleep disturbances such as vivid dreams and recurring nightmares insomnia, wakefulness, night terrors[13] flashbacks dissociation (feeling like one is not attached to one's body) panic attacks reliance on coping mechanisms, some of which may be beneficial (e.g., philosophy and family support), and others that may ultimately be counterproductive (e.g., self harm, drug, or alcohol abuse[14][15]).” As a child? I was forced to: The numbers game, also known as the numbers racket, the Italian lottery, Mafia lottery or the daily number, is a form of illegal gambling or illegal lottery played mostly in poor and working class neighborhoods in the United States, wherein a bettor attempts to pick three digits to match those that will be randomly drawn the following day. For many years the "number" has been the last three digits of "the handle", the amount race track bettors placed on race day at a major racetrack, published in racing journals and major newspapers in New York. Gamblers place bets with a bookmaker ("bookie") at a tavern, casinos, bar, barber shop, social club, or any other semi-private place that acts as an illegal betting parlor. Runners carry the money and betting slips between the betting parlors and the headquarters, called a numbers bank. Closely related is policy, known as the policy racket, or the policy game. The name "policy" is based on the similarity to cheap insurance, which is also a gamble on the future.[1]” I did frequent casinos with criminals. Also as a child, I was to participate in the illegal drug trade or drug trafficking. --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/antonio-myers4/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/antonio-myers4/support