Hope Without Sight

Hear from a woman who is living with Bipolar Disorder every day. She says “I’s not easy, but it is worth it in the end.”

About the Guest:

What is the first thing you think of when you hear the term “bipolar”? Dysfunctional, crazy, unstable, lunatic? How about “broken”?  That's what I thought the first time I was diagnosed with this illness back in 1998. All I could think about when I heard the words come out of my doctor's mouth was “I'm broken.”  I had always known that there was something wrong, but I just thought it was my fault, and that if I tried harder I could fix myself. But now the doctor was telling me that there was something wrong with my brain chemistry and that with medication they could help me to manage the symptoms.

I remember the strange feelings I had as I walked out of the doctor's office. On one hand I felt like the world had been lifted off my shoulders because here was someone telling me that it wasn't my fault–the inconsistency, the instability, the incredible, uncontrollable mood swings. On the other hand, though, I felt this gloom and uncertainty settling in over me. Did this mean I was ALWAYS going to be like this? Would it never matter how hard I tried? Would I always struggle? Who would want me now?

The years that followed were different from the previous years really in one main way–I had been on a roller coaster before, but now I was aware of it. There is no exact science to treating mental illness. It's a “science” of guess and check. Finally, however, in 2010, I experienced my first glimmer of hope. My mother contacted me to encourage me to call a friend of hers whose husband had a chemical imbalance and had found a natural supplement that had helped tremendously. I was a little incredulous. I had heard of and even tried some “natural remedies” before and had never found one with any real merit. I had been conditioned by my doctors to believe that medication was my only real hope, even though my experience had taught me otherwise. After speaking with this woman, I decided to give it a try. I really had nothing to lose. So I started to take the supplement. Incredibly I started to notice a difference. Little by little I started to feel better. I stopped having migraines, which were a terrible, debilitating after effect I had suffered from the electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) I had during one of my hospitalizations. I was slowly able to come off of my mood stabilizer, too, although I was not comfortable going off of all my medications But, I was starting to feel better than I had in years.

Then, a couple months later I was introduced to another supplement by a good friend. This was when things really started to turn around. Thankfully my psychiatrist, who I had been seeing for 9 years, was willing to learn about it and help me transition off of the medication to the supplement. It took a couple months to titrate off the medications and to start to really feel the difference, however, I felt so much better. It was like I was awake for the first time in my adult life. It was really quite strange for me, having spent most of my life having such a debilitating, controlling chemical imbalance, to now have control of my thoughts, feelings, moods and emotions. I remember the first time I talked myself out of an anxiety attack it was surreal. I was so used to having anxiety attacks and not having any control of what was happening to my body–my chest tightened up and I couldn't breathe, which was usually followed by nausea and panic. But this time as my body began this familiar reaction I was keenly aware of what was happening, what had triggered it, and I was able to recognize that I was having an irrational reaction. I then was able to calm myself down and stop the anxiety attack. When this happened I remember thinking, “Wow, is this what normal people do?!” I was so excited I called my husband and told him all about it! Although I felt much better, I had a lot of work and learning to do to really learn how to manage my illness naturally. In the 10 years since I started taking these supplements I have worked to learn different skills and find tools that help me to live a healthy well-balanced life. I decided to start this blog to share what I learned in the hope that I could help others to learn how to live well with bipolar. It’s not easy, but it is SO WORTH IT!!! https://myupsideofdown.com/

About the Host:

I am Saylor Cooper, Owner of Real Variety Radio and host of the Hope Without Sight Podcast. I am from the Houston, Texas area and am legally blind which is one of the main reasons why I am hosting this show surrounding this topic, to inspire others by letting them know that they can live their best life and reach their highest potential.

 Website:

https://realvarietyradio.com/

 About the Co-host:

My name is Matthew Tyler Evans and I am from the Northeast Texas area. I am blind like Saylor is and we have the same retinal condition. I decided to join Saylor‘s podcast because I have a strong interest in teaming up with him and I think together, we can inspire the world with others with disabilities.

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