After 2 years of hosting The Deep and holding space for others, I'm ready to share with you one of the traumas that I lived through. When I was younger, I became a victim of domestic violence. I was manipulated, isolated, physically and sexually abused until I didn't know who I was anymore. But I got out. Somehow. And this is my story.Sean Szeps holds this conversation. Someone I trust and tell all my secrets to.Please note. During this chat I may sound guarded or at times unemotional. I know that this is still a trauma response. Because of legal reasons I can't reveal the identity of my abuser so some things need to stay private. It makes this a difficult conversation because I can't share everything that I want to. What I am doing is sharing the full extent of this abusive relationship for the first time ever.Content warning; This episode discusses domestic abuse, physical and sexual abuse, and suicide. Support resources are listed below...
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episode 2: The Trauma Cleaner Part 1
Sandra is like a cat that has nine lives. There are so many chapters of this story we had to share it over two episodes.
Sandra grew up as Peter and through his life he was many things: He became a father, a husband, a woman, a drag artist, a prostitute, a drug addict, a law abiding citizen, a married woman, one of Melbourne's high society, a business owner, a widow and a trauma cleaner.
As you can imagine this is a hell of a ride. It is a story that has a lot of explicit and adult content.
It is almost unbelievable that one person can fit so much into one lifetime but she did and it's fascinating.
Content warning: this episode deals with prostitution, drugs and abuse. If you are suffering or are triggered by the themes of this podcast, help services are available.
- For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015
- Lifeline 13 11 14
- 1800RESPECT is the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling service
If you want more Sandra you can:
- Buy her book: The Trauma Cleaner
- Visit her website
- Follow her on Instagram
Credits:
- Joanne Helder - Audio Producer
- Caleb Jacobs - Sound and Music
- AJ Davis - Comms Manager
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